Treated

My boyfriend is a very nice person. once you gotten close to him he treats you with what you deserve. Hes not selfish at all. Im glad that i met him, i always say that lols. but its the truth. hes the type of person that just spends things on what makes him happy.

so today woke up early and got ready. babe came over and we left to go meet with others. then we went to ala moana. after that babe and i went shopping while the rest split since we were waiting for the others. then they came and we ate genkis. babe treated us. how nice ;) hehe. all of us went all over and babe bought me things today :) then babe let us take the cab with him, and dropped us off at kams. them mama picked me up. mom thought i bought a lot, but nope i was just carrying his things cuz babe said to bring it for now lol...

anyways, i dont ask much from him. but hes just generouse and gives me what i deserve ;)

pics from today:

so....

after all is said and done... i still love you like you do too... i cant belive you just did that though... you shouldve trusted me... i dont mind you talking to them, its just that what you first said didnt match what you were doing... so i got mad... i told you to talk to me when you know whatsup...next thing you know i get your call. i was expecting and hoping you would call and you did. i cry, you cry. long story short, we worked it out. you apoligized i let it go... you hate arguing with me and i hate arguing with you too... but relationships go through this kind of crap... i wanted it to be fixed before we go out today... which we did... i dont wanna loose you... and i said "babe lets just forget about this and move on by learning..." and you said "thats all i wanted..."

remember my last post "fuck you . fuck this . fuck everything . for now..."
yeah i ment it.. "for now" lol.

irritating

fuck you. fuck this. fuck everything. for now...

Messeges

im sorry for checking it but i always tell you that i do. i mean its not like we have anything to hide right? when i saw those messages my heart sank. i started crying... i thought i was gonna loose you... i thought you were hiding something. you deleted it thats why... but then i just went to you and talked about it. and i guess i got it all wrong. it was nothing to worry about. you just delete the others because you only want our messages :) thanks babe... im sorry for overreacting. but you told me how these kind of problems will just help make us stronger. and i agree babe. it has made us both stronger. you let me know im the only one and your the only one. thats how it should be :)

yeah you can say im derlirious for him :)

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"Did you know when you dream about a person, that person went to sleep thinking of you? Did you know when the person you like looks at you & and then looks down, they're crazy about you? Did you know that when a person looks at you directly in the eyes they love you more than you think? Did you know when that person looks at you alot they can't live without you? Did you know when they leave, they say bye too much because they don't want to let you go?"

Daddy

i miss my daddy. even if he just left today. hes on his way to the philippines. he wont be coming back till feb 13. i dont think hes gonna be here for my birthday... so today as i dropped my dad off to the airport i realize that im gonna miss him. im gonna miss him spoiling me, dropping me off to places, cooking for me, making me laugh, and letting me do the things i love to do. dont get me wrong, my mom does the same, but it takes both parents to make it more better. im glad i stil have my mom here with me, its just that dads just gonna make me worried... especially hes far away, its gonna leave me wondering if hes safe... dont get me wrong, i love the philippines... i miss the phiippines. if i could go i wouldve gone but nope... when dad had to go, i hugged my dad and i started to cry. i think i was the only one crying lmfao ! my eyeliner smeared haha and dad said to stop crying cuz i ruined it lmfao. you can say im daddys little girl. i have the same attitude as him, my mom always complains how im simillar to him.. hahah. its funny tho :) but seriously, i guess this will make me appreciate how i have both parents with me and im thankful i have a dad like him... and a mom that both are supportive ;) i dont say it often but i know they know i love them... no matter what...

Merry Christmas

so at midnight, my aunty and uncle and cole came over. we ate some food. cole and i made chicken strips, our way i guess haha. then they left and i went to sleep. woke up in the morning and its christmas morning :) got ready then opend the gifts my friends got me. watched baby nephew, nathan sooo cuttie haha. i ended up tired and fell asleep again.
then nicole came over and i did my eyeshadow. she wanted me to do hers so i did. sister too lols. we all looked dolled up for christmas. cole and i had like the same outfit, just opposite colors. but we wore red white and black i guess ahha.
other family members came over. we sang kareoke. we took group pictures. it was funny cuz we all had to squeeze in. i loved it though :) after we continued doing kareoke. then aunty blessed food and we ate. YUMMIE FOOD haha. then half sis came over ;) got gifts hehe.
mom took a pictures of cole and i by her plants and dads star ahah. was so funny, was like one photoshoot. its okay, we have our moments :)
then it was time to open presents. got gifts from secret santa, got some cash, got some gifts from others. i'm preety satisfied with what i got :D everything i got is usefull. ohhhmy gosh i got the ferrero rocher box chocolate. got the loads cuz sis got one too ahha. its lucky to have a sibling, cuz i get to share ahha.
then after people started leaving and mom,sis, and i just kept singing then we got tired. so we got ready for bed and everyones sound asleep on christmas night hehee. wait isnt this the last firday of 09 ? i guess soo haha. im actually typing this out cuz im bored and not sleepy yet.
anyways, this christmas to me seemed better than last years? i mean i got most of the things i wanted which im supper thankful for. i got to celebrate i with my family which was the most important thing. and thank you christ for this day for having jesus come in our world to save us from our sins. MERRY CHRISTMAS :)

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tis the season

to be jolly? yeup it sure is. this year i didnt really care how many gifts i got. all i wanted is for my love ones to be happy and to be happy with me. yeah sure i wanted some materialistic stuff, i cant help it. i've learned to be patient, to not open my presents this early in christmas. tahaha. even if i opend some or know some of the gifts, its okay. i mean im just thankful for the things that the ones i love have given me. it doesnt matter if its expensive or not, as long as i know they did it out of love.

this year, i finally have a person to count on to keep my love. like the song says "last christmas i gave you my heart but the very next day you gave it away". this year, i have him to keep my heart. im so thankful and glad hes still here with me. he makes a lot of effort in this relationship. i can see a change in him, and i love him for being the same person that i loved in the begining. i love how we constantly remind each other how much love we have each other.

some people say that the christmas spirt has gone down the drain. well to me, it hasnt. it only has if YOU make it to be that way. i belive that the true meaning of christmas is about CHRIST. thats the reason why we should be thankful. im glad i went church today, my faith in god has become stronger. i praise the lord everyday, and god will provide. well, my dad loves decorating. my mom shops for us. my sister and i just help around ;) as long as my family comes together on christmas day, then im happy. tomarro i guess were celebrating with ma and dads side at our house :D ya, i love staying my house. it feels so homeey to me, duh jessica ahha. anyways, opening gifts tomaro. excited tho hehe. i cant belive christmas is here. how fast days go by...

2010 here we come

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“ I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you, how good you look when you smile; how much I love your laugh. I day dream about you off and on, replaying our conversations; laughing at funny things you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagined. I wonder what will happen the next time we’re together and even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing for sure; you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me. "

ice palace

with some of the usuals. today was a last minute plan i guess to go to ice palace for shindys last full day until she goes to washington for vacation. imma miss her even if its only for two weeks i think lols. anyways, today babe came over then dad dropped us off to fhs. babe and i waited till aja, gabe, shindy, and jay came. we took bus and walked to ice palace. babe treated me :) and then we went get skates and eat. jay treated us a whole pizza, yummie. then we went to skate. haha so funny, babe hasnt skated for the longest. he told me the last time he skated was in 8th grade ! lols. its okay i holdded him for most of the time ;) he fell a few times haha. zane kept making trouble to him haha. shindy, aja, and i wanted to request a song. so we requested bedrock, BUT the freakin dJ didnt follow through his word. we WAITED so freakin long to hear the song? WE ended up leaving at 4, but we ended up not hearing the song. we were suppose to dance in the center of the rink like last time, but ugh stupid busy dj guy ! ahah. he kept moving and we trie to hunt him down ahah. after ice palace we went into this store, aja and i bought landyards. yay :) i finally have one thats nice i guess? haha. then we went take bus home. on the bus i was tired, then when we had to separate, i kept hugging shindy because it was my last time spending time with her until she comes back ;) hehe. i almost cried, but i didnt want to show it ahah. but yeah, a great day. very tiring. spent time with babe and the usuals whom ive missed hanging out with ;) next time again tee heee.

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"I'm madly inlove with a boy that makes me completely insane. He makes me smile, laugh, cry, and scream more than anyone else I know. But, I'm head over heels for him & I know he's got it bad for me too. So, through the good and the bad; when it's all said & done, the only thing that matters is that were both completely crazy about each other."

meet the parents ;)

so today babe plans to come over my house. he came like an hour later than he said he would. ma was gonna wait but she had to go to her christmas party. so then when babe came over grandma asked funny questions. shes such a fob. babe was talking filipino to her. then jonimar came over. we all watched "a walk to remember". how cutee hehe. babe said he cries in the movie. he was tearing at the end. hehe was so cute he was tryna hide ! but during the movie dad came, he met babe for the first time. he interviewed him about himself. he didnt interogate babe. babe was kina nervous looking? i dont know ahha. but yeah i could see them two getting along hehe. then after that babe ate some food. hes so fatty hehe joking. then after ma came later, she met babe first time tooo. she talked to him for a while. and i was surprised she didnt say much to annoy me ahha. adults leave us alone which is surprizing but good ;) nicole wanted to make brownies so we did. it tasted good hehe. we all relaxed today. it was fun being with babe. he finally met my parents. im thankful they accept the fact that i have a boyfriend. oh yeah, babe opened his gift that i gave him early lmfao. he wore his shoes today ahah. i opend his too anyways, i gave him the other ring. he bought me a ring ;) it states "what would i do without you?" how cute hehe.

Pics from today:

unfair

im always there. im the one that you call about information. im the one who listens to you even if id get irritated i put up with you because im always there for my close friends. now loook ! today just proves to me that im nothing, they come first. i thought we were all close that. but yet, you just push me aside thinking i would understand. hey i dont really know your relationship with them but i know i always help you at least as much as they do and YOU just dont appreciate. you fuckn tell me youll get me thoes things. but NOOOOOOOOOO ! just because i never go with you guys, you dont get it for me. i even reminded you. you said you would. but just because they were there you bought them. i thought it was just a discount but noooo. hows that. you get them and not me. FUCK THAT im done with this kind. i hate getting close to guys that fuckn only use me to get to someone. SHET you guys no even talk that much and SHE GETS ! fuck. so irritating. and its surprizing how she says she doesnt want it but ends up taking it. so wierd. hmm idk the whole storry but oh the fuck wellls....just leyme know whassup...
hawww you told me youd give me these discount cards... i was sad. shet i get only that much of a discount and pay the rest. and they get free. hows that. I even bought you a gift. shet. i dont even know if i wanna talk to you. you always late minute.... fuck this crap.

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"In every girl’s life, there are three guys. The one she loves, the one she hates, & the one she cant get enough of. Turns out that in the end, they’re usually all the same guy."

120809 - being spolied

sorry i've been blogging late because on thoes days, i dont have time to blog. i was either busy with school or just too tired to reflect on a great or depressing day lmfao.

anyways, on this day, after school i was suppose to go mcdonalds with friends. i ended up getting picked up by dad. i was mad at dad for picking me up early but i apologized as he then took me to mcdonalds. after that on our way home, i mentioned to dad how i wanted a new phone. i asked how much would he pay. then he called up my half sister who works at At&t and asked her about the monthly plans and such. dad took me to waipahu where my half sister works. i didnt know my dad was actually gonna get me a phone. but, half sis said i should get an iphone. so i did. and dad agreed :) he says he'll pay for the monthly cuz i know my mom was gonna get mad for having to get a phone lmfao. dad likes to spoil me he said haha. i felt kina guilty tho, cuz my dad left jenny, my half sister and then letting her see how our dad spoils my sister and i is kind of wierd. i wonder what she thinks. but she said shes okay cuz as long as dad treats my family well then shes happy. lols.

anyways, so i got a new phone. new number.

Xmas gifts

today i went shopping with babe and heather. babe showed us where he works and buys a lot of his stuff. then we went to ala moana. we ate genkis :) then we went vans. i bought babe shoes for christmas. then heather and babe bought peoples gifts. babe also got my gift which were our promise rings? lols :D its preety cute i guesss hehe. i also bought gifts for others. i didnt really buy anything for myself. babe also got me a hello kitty ring from hot topic ahah. next we three sat down and talked about middle school and random things lols. then gabe jhe met up with us and we went to wal mart. me and babe went walking around inside of wal mart while the rest of them looked at dvds lols. woah the dvds were on sale ?!?! lols. hmmm i feel so warm around babe ;) i mean he makes me feel so happy. he tells me he feels like jello when hes with me hehe. i feel like that too ahah ! after, babe and i took bus to go home, the rest waited for their rides.
babe and i on the bus :) i love how we would sing to each other parts of songs. i love how he reminds me about our love and how we met and stuff. its sooo cutee :) he just is too me and i love spending these moments with him. babe told me he doesnt care hed get busted from his evil step mom because he spent the day with me :) i love how he just holds me and how we our hands would just connect :D i may sound corney but heck i feel so differnt around him. he has been my longest and hes the one that i got stuck to ^___^

Reconciliation 120909

so today right after a long day of school and signing up for an academy, i went to confirmation, im a catholic. this day we had to go church and participate in this reconciliation. it was a time for us to do a confession with the father. i was afraid to confess to the priest because, one i didnt know him well, two i didnt know what to say, and three it was my first time. so lucky thing i had a friend of mine tell me what to say at first. i went with her in line to confess. while in line, i prepared my mind to just think of all the sins i have done throughout my life since this was my first confessions to priest who was god at that moment. as i came up to father, i said what i could say. i wanted to say more, but i ended up stuttering because i forgot what i wanted to tell him.but its okay, father blessed me and i learned that god has forgiven whatever sins i have done even if i fogto to metion some other sins i may have done.

right after confessing, i kneeled and prayed to god. telling him how i appreciate him for forgiving me. and then all of a sudden i started breaking down, thinking of all the wrong things i have done in life. how i should thank these people who are in my life that creatd a big impact ! i was tearing, and as i got in dads car i told dad how i love care for him and how thankful i have a parent that supports me all the way. i started crying, and dad said he was proud of me and gave me the usual advice a parent would say :) i got home, dad went to work. i stayed outside and called my mom, telling her sorry and telling her how much i love and care for her. it was a voicemail. i apologized to my sister telling her how important and how i should be more of a role model to her. i called my homie telling him how thankful i am to have a person to listen to my problems. i called my boyfriend telling him how much i love and care for him and how im thankful we gave us a chance. i called my best friend since befor kinder that im thankful i met her and how weve grown strong in our friendship because shes like my long lost sister ;D

as i was speaking to these people, i was crying. i was touched by god and i wouldnt to let them know how i feel how much i wanted to spread the feeling of god to them. mom forgave me for how i lied and how she loves me no matter what and that she thankful i realized how much my parents have worked so hard for us....

i just wanted to let it out because, the life i have is all im looking for. i may get spoiled at times, i may ask too much, all i want to prove is that i deserve to have these people in my life. god gave us the certain people in my life to have me become who i will be :) i dont know if that made sence but oh wells :) i know its a bit late for thanksgiving but im thankful i have the people realize how much i am to them even though ive hurted them...

JB

he who has made me realize that things could change. im thankful i get a chance to spend time with him. im glad he even makes time for me. things came better. i mean before i was so used to him just hanging around and sometimes i thought he had put others before me. but now, i can honestly say you proved me wrong in many ways. i love the way he has constantly reminds me of how he loves me a lot and just cuddles with me and gives me that bubbly feeling. i dont remember when the last time i felt like this with another person. he seriously made an impact on me. whenever i dont get a chance to be with him, becomes a hard task. but, i overcome it because hes still in my mind and in my heart. yeah i may sound cheasy to whomever may read this, but hey im just letting out how i feel. maybe, im too young or whatever, but im surprised at myself of how i act. when im with him, i totally forget of others and just concentrate on him. it makes me sound so selfish and selfcentered, but hey what girl doesnt do that around a guy she totally cares about? others think hes wierd, or whatever, but all i can say is that, YOU DONT KNOW HIM like i do. i've been through so much and i have gotten where i wanted to be :) i love his sweet talks and his kind heart...

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"You ask me why I like you, and it's really something I can't put into words. Maybe it's because you make me happy most of the time. Maybe it's because you know how to keep a conversation with me. Maybe it's because you got me thinking about you before I go to sleep, and after I wake up. Maybe it's because I can be myself around you. Maybe it's because you bring the best out of me. Maybe it's because I can spend hours on the phone with you talking about the stupidest things. Maybe it's because I can never get enough of you. Maybe it's just because your just being yourself, and I'm slowly falling for you."

Quote 1

I fell for him and he caught me. I didn't get attached to him because of how well he played the game,his smile or how sweet he was. I fell for him because I knew deep in my heart something was telling me to give this one guy a try something was telling me he might be different, something was telling me he'll treat me like a girl should be treated. So I gave it a try and from then and now our feelings grown for eachother and stronger and as I look back I'm glad I fell for him and I'm glad he was the guy to catch me.

November 28

i woke up early got ready to go around the island with fam bam. daddy rented a big van and we all fit this time :) haha. dad took long buying food but we still had a great time. first we went to the pinapple maze at dole plantation. nicole and sister leaded my way through the maze lmfao. then after we went to other stops and took pictures. we at lunch/dinner at china mans hat. cole, sis and i went swim. we actually just sat in the water taking a break from everything ahaha. foood was delicious as always. left late there and we stoped over the other historic places like the blow hole place? yeah was freakin cold hah. then we went to tatlaus ! was especially cold, but the bright city lights were beautiful. to me if this is just hawaii, whats it like in new york city? ONE DAY ill know :) ahah. when we got home i was tired, nicole slept while i was on comp tweaking.

later that night, i got a call from babes brother asking where jonathan was and phone numbers. i didnt know anyone of his friends number.... that left me worrying about him... his cousin comments me asking where he is... now im scared... but i stayed up that night uploading pics to myspace, lucky i was cuz i got a messeged from him ! yeah and i felt better, then we talked on the phone and i felt better :) ahaha

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black friday

omfg im tired! i litterally shopped till i dropped.

so woke up like at 4 : 05 i think? and then went off to pick up sher and cole.
we got at alas around 5 : 45 and we went straight to forever 21. ahah so funny we just went by the door side cuz who said we had to wait in a line?? then all of a sudden was almost 6 and everyone crowded the doors. yippe we were like one of the 100's to go in. i got skinny jeans that were dirty cheap ! and a top and cheap belt too hehe. was long line tho. then after we went to prototype i thinkk, bought some shirts for myself again ah. next off to wards, suppose to go im4mation but we ended up going to dig lifestyle, cheap things there too ! i got a gift for my homie ;) then we went back to alas, we went to pacsun, vans, i didnt buy from there, sherry bought a lot ! ahaha. then after we went and eat at genkis. yummie. my sisters first time going there aha. we also went slipper house and jeans wearhouse. i got some slippers and a top. after i guess we went to random stores to pass time cuz dad picked us up at 2 : 30

i got tired carrying the bags. my arm go like itchy ahah. but everything was worth it. i bought part of babes gift ;) its a useful thing hah. and then i had to wait in a long ass line just for buy his gift sheet ! its okay hehe. anywyas he never come, but at least he called to check up on me hehe ;) ahh i miss that loooser. im keeping myself busy so that i dont need to think about missing him too much ahah !

welll happy black friday peeps ! its my first time spending it with others, sherry, cole, and sis. it was fun ! and waiting in lines was worth it. i just was dissapointed in one shirt ! lmfao i guess ill give it as a gift ?! haha.

Thanksgiving-Truth day

so today in the morning i went to church. i learned that we should be thankful everyday. we can live our lives not thanking others but that's not going to show happiness. when you become a thankful person you share joy and love-thats what matters in life.

after church, went with ma cuz she wanted to get somethings from kmart cuz had sale i guess. then during the ride back home i asked ma questions. i was giving hints on how i have a boyfriend. i wanted to tell her right then but i was afraid on how she would react and i didnt really want my father knowing i had one! but, subject changed as we picked up turkey.

i got home and then babe called :) he made my day. he made me realize how thaknful he is to have me. im thankful sooo much to have him as my boyfriend. ive known him for awhile, and i can say i care a lot about him. he treats me a way that i havent been treated before. i love the way we just make trouble to each other. i love when we kiss because it makes me feel all bubbly. i love when im with him because it just makes me feel all warm inside. yeah, you may not think hes the perfect boyfriend, but to me hes all i ever asked for that i never thought i needed. he totally proved a differnt side to me even though he has his fooolish side, i take it in cuz no ones perfect right... anyways even if we didnt talk for several minutes, with you remembering to call me and greeting me, ment a lot to me. he told me he couldnt go black friday shoppin wit me cuz he had to finish his project i guess. its okay i understand, its suppose to be us girls shoppin anyways ;)

after his call, i realized i hated keeping him a secret... then i got hungry and ma called aunty them for come over so we can have our thanksgiving lunch. while waiting for them, ma dad and sis were around the table. ma asked me "do you have a boyfriend anako" i stuttered and said "ughh" and then she saww me blush so she knew it was obvious. so i just admitted. and surprisingly, they find it funny, cuz now they tease me and they want to meet him ahah ! i thot they were gonna get mad at me. but nahh, they understand that im a teenager and this is natural ahah. dad didnt get mad ahah! he was a bit sad i could see in his eyes cuz his baby girl has a boyfrind lmfao ! but, letting that out i felt better. i felt like i dont need to hide anything anymore. i didnt tell babe that my parents know yet, next time he calls ill surprize him ! aha :)

HAPPY THANKSGIVING ;)
this isnt my whole day, there was also a black out in the afternoon. ahaha. ma went work and i just bonded wit sis and dad as usual when its black out. im full and just gonna get ready for sleep cuz tomarro im goin shopping ;D hopefully i find great dealls hehe !

ive missed you

this whole three days of school was killihg me. the thought of not having to see you for four days sucked. i mean im not trying to be dependent on you but i just missed you. before i was so used to you being busy, now that you werent i was glad that i could spend time with you. monday was an okay day. tuesday was a annoying day. i didnt really get much hours with you ! sheeet. you wasnt even there lunch time and i was sad. whever im sad i just try to put a smile but i just turn into a frown. i got annoyed and i didnt want to spread it to the rest of the people haha. i never thought id feel like this for anyone. i mean its my first time feeling like this in a while. i hate caring too much for you. but, i cant help it, i cant control it. today was better i guess. being with you is fun as usual and it makes me feel warm inside that i have you by my side ;) you get some moody times but im used to it, cuz i get thoes feelings too aha. you didnt come the other times because you were off learning with him and im glad your trying your best to get a better grade ;) cuz you wanna beat me thats why ! ahah.

hmmm... i wonder why tears fall when i miss you. its not the end of the world if i dont see you. but i just hurt, cuz i always wonder things and i hate that. thinking of you is a constant habbit for me eversince long time. its not like hes gonna see this anyways, but im thankful to have met him.

date with babe

i remember our other dates taahaha. i love this one too ;)
you said its a date because its for our month-a-versery thingy ahaha !
you toook me out to wards and we watched new moon the day it came out ;) you worried that it was sold out, but then i said no worries cuz i called them up yesterday and asked if it was sold out and they said no. stupid friend of mines told me it was sold out fuckn guy was just saying that because he wanted for come stupid shet wanted for ruin my day even though i warned him yesterday that i didnt want to deal with him today lmfao.

ANYWAYS, new moon was awesome ! i mean was so sexxy the bodies, the scenes were so touching. i was like tearing up because edward left bella. and ughh was so sad haha. babe was a bit of distraction but its okay hehe ;) the wolfs were hella big and interesting ! haha. awww i loved how there was a bit of funny scenes lmfao. ohh and the ending ! oh gosh ahah ! babe was kina mad of how it ended, but thats how it ended in the book ;P cant wait till next year in july ! hahaha.

after new moons, babe and i walked towards alas and we ate genkis. i didnt eat much, just the usual. babe likes to treat me even if i insited i pay haha. hes suppper nice ;) and im thankful hes there for me and i get to spend time with him like this. its the happiest momments of my life.

i didnt wanna go home early so i went with babe to da planet or watever its called. watched babe play games while i listend to itouch haha. i got a bit bored though but i didnt wanna go home by myself. so we went bus together after, and i fell asleep with him in the begining haha. me and him were tired dont know why, i guess we woke up eary thats why ahah ;)

i love him uuuubeeeerrr duuubeeer muuuuchhh ;D happy furlough friday hahaha.

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lately,

i haven't been updating much. i usually do everyday. haahah. reason is, schoools preety hectic. projects are due often now, stupid furloughs ! ahah. anyways, business class is alright with me. the people i have in it help make that class fun hehe. right? english class is fun tooo :) im thankful that even if im an honors english, its not that hard compared to other students who don't have honors. but, i guess we sorta take advantage of her, which is not good. MATH omg its hard lately, i went down so much precents. tear* fcken sheeet i gett it but i guess im getting preety lazy and am very careless now a days. hmm... cooking class is awesome as usual, it satisfies me hehe.

errr myspace got me somewhat addicted to searching up great deals on outfits. haha boutiques on myspace? yeup serious. its funny, i used to think ayee what kind that, but now im the one buying ! shet i gotta stop because i need to save for...black friday and christmas haha. my mom tells me i buy too much.

friends, its the same i guesss. it has been rough for me a bit with others. i just get so irritated when people invite themselves to places and ruin things. fuck. and i hate the fact that things have to be repeated and i hate having to waste my breath shet. sometimes that person doesn't even understand how this frienship works, its a reciprocal thing, if your always complaining about your life and being such a pussy then why should i stay when you dont even listen to what i say. but i guess, i just have to deal with, i already am, im ignoring this situation...

the 18th day of the month just recently past ;) i love that day. its the day i said yes officially hehe. im so glad to have met you long ago and loook at us now baby ;) you make me smile with the little things you do, i know that sound so corny, but its okay. you say things that make me feel all smiley ;) i love making trouble to you and so do you. you make me realize why i have fallen for you.

recent photos taken:

Sunday Morning Reflection

i missed church last week. i felt so crappy that day and tired. today i felt like i haven't been in church for the longest time when it was just last week that i didn't go. anyways, today i woke up early and went to church. i felt awake, and made sure i payed attention. i love it when father reads the gospel, because that teaches me a lesson. today's gospel was about the sacrifice and talking about the world? sorry i don't remember exact words. the thing i love about church the most is when father gives out a speech, when he preaches towards us. it interest me because he relates it to the reality and what he said to day made sence to me ;) haha. he told us about the 2012 movie how he doesn't believe in it and that the reason they probally made it was because they have interperet the scriptions. he says that they took pieces out from the bible storys and tried to make sence out of it when really its not true ! the only way to do right is to belive god is there for us in our hearts. to trust in him. to make sure you live out your faith everyday. he told us how we always ask "why does bad things happen to good people" well the reason is that even if bad things happen to good people and the bad people seem to be doing alright, is that god wants us to live out our faith, and to believe that he is there and so we need to triumph over the hardships. he told us to never give up in anything even if it seems tough. because in the end, good will triumph all no matter what. he reminded us how we live in an Imperfect world, there will always be people trying to discourage us, but its up to us to learn how to put up with it. i trust in god and im hoping to be closer to him on my journey in becoming confirmed :D

i love

how babe analyzes his dreams about me and him :)
how he tells me these stories
how he makes me feel loved
how babe makes me smile all over again
how he reassures me
how he compliments me
how babe shows me his affection
how he makes trouble to me
how he teaches me about reality
how babe is there for me
how he tells me the truth
how he makes time for me
how babe listens to me more often now a days :P
how he realizes how much i am to him
how he knows im here for him
how babe knows i love him :D

Stubborn

wow, you really showed me your different side of you yesterday. seriously i thought you would understand the decision that i made. i thought you knew me. you didn't, you went right ahead and been stubborn. what do you expect me to do? he's my boyfriend and he asked too. if you were in my position you would have done the same, tell me not ? seriously, you blew me off just like that. just when i was the happiest person getting my braces off, you go ahead and act so ughhh and ruined my day. hey i gave you another chance afterschool. yet you still didnt care to take a picture with me. you knew it was my day that i was happy. what? i failed you ? just because of that you werent proud of me? im sorry gosh :(

apparantly today is your day. you call and asked me to go but i wasnt sure. i told you how you acted like what you did yesterday and you said sorry. now i say "why should i go" and you just go "nevermind". i hate your short answers. so what now? why cant i do the things that you do to me back to you ? its not only this time. everytime i ask about things, you dont let me know right away, i always gotta go deep and ask again? when you just want me to say what i want to say. i dont force you or anything and look... man fck it. hows this for beign a homie to me...

but, hey this is just my point of view as of today. dont make it my last impression of everything... i dont want it to be like this.

BRACES OFF !

today i woke up excited :) went to school and got a pass. babe remembered that i was taking off my braces that day. having him take notice of things made me start off my day happy :)

went to ala moana. doctor took off braces. i thot was gon take long, but was preety fast the process. haha wasnt even hurtful ! was cool cuz they just went crush the braces and then the whole thing came off. then after that doc just when clean the glue and cement or whatever. after his assistant pollished my teeth ;) then they molded my teeth so they could make my retainers. the lady took pictures. then doc compared my pictures bfore and after. WOW DIFFERNT! haha i was such a seventh grader that time i had no braces. awww im glad my parents gave me braces :D it made a big differnce and boosted up my self esteem hehe.

first food i ate?? McMuffin ! lmfao ! i forgot how that tasted like, then as i taste it i fell in love with it? ahhaa. anyways got to shoool early. went to period two, didnt expect to lols. people noticed and complimented me :) thanks hehe. i tried not to smile but i kept smiling hehe. then after that period three. then lunch :) i kept smiling, some noticed, some didnt. the ones that noticed were the ones who look at me everyday because they care :D hehe. anyways, babe called just so he could be the first to take a picture. so i went upstairs to meet up with babe since he had to do a meeting. i was afraid to smile at him tho haha. but i ended up because i couldnt hold it in ;) then i took pics with him.

afterschool, went to ala moanas with my usual usuals. we ate genkis :) we had laughter ! bah was so funny, we should video tape everytime ? haha jk. anyways, i ate and finished and was full haha. then after we all seperated. i went to get my retainers. my retainers help my teeth become shiney ! hehe its so cool but its kind of wierd. but it feels like i still have braces ! haha. i wanted to get my teeth whitened today. ma said i could next time after i go to a dental appointment haha :D

pictures from today :)

havent posted up

things for days ? ahaha surprizingly. i usually do like almost everyday or event that happend in my life. lately, i've been totally busy on school, friends, family, and boyfriend.

its not really hard to juggle its just the hw that gets on my nerves. buisness class is its usual, fun and boring haha. english seems to get a bit harder, but i should appreciate i dont have a hard teacher even if im in honors class or should i say "honors Honors" hahah. alg two? hmmm its a struggle, but im getting it pace by pace. im hopping i dont slack on the tests damn it. meal managment which is cooking class is always fun ;)

i love hanging with the poeple i already am with, there no need to be another person around them. im totally me with them. ive gotten so close to the ones i thought i wouldnt have. but sometimes, i hate being mistaken to be tooo nice. because when i always try to help, its never reciprocal? its always about YOUR fuckn feelings. lately youve been a BITCH to me. thinking im your bitch. maybe im exagerating it a bit, but i just dont want our friendship to come to the point where im so irritated by being taken advantage of. however, im just thankful people count on me ;D

my family always has its up and down, but im learning to handle my anger, even if i may have blown up today just because dad rearranged my room. i was venting towards mother never realizing i havent thanked her for cleaning it. i said sorry and thank you to ma and aunt. i punished myself by rearranging my room and fixing stuff for an hour haha, with the help of sis of course ;)

my boyfriend, yeah him? of course him ;) ive learned you cant miss someone if your always with him. i remember how you were totally busy with your activities, i used to be jealouse that that goes first before me. i used to think that im not worth your time. but babe always proves me wrong. he tells me im number one. yeah sure he doesnt call as often as i want him to, but i understand his situation. i love it when he calls at times i dont even expect him to. to hear him tell me goodmorning and tell me how much he loves me and such, just makes my day, even if its only for a couple of minutes. lately, things are getting better. im just thankful to have him.

wet n wild

as known as water park lols.

hmm woke up early to get ready to meet up with the rest of the peeps.
jay changed the plans. his mom suppose to take us to wet n wild,
instead they came my house to wait for my dad to take us.
haha babe knows where i live now ;P
anyways i went with babe, jay, gabe, and heather to water park.
we had a discount on the ticket. hmm...

first thing we do, get lockers. then we go ride the rides. i think we rode the new ride, i forgot whats it called. hmm i screamed at time tahaha. so shame. then we went on other rides. it was supper fun but tiring walking up to the rides lmfao. babe was scared to ride the tornado but i made him hehe. the bay was fun, right ? tahha. we ate lunch after. uhmm that made me full. right after we ate we went to the place where you just chill in the floaty and go around and around the course haha.

aww today just made my day. hehe spent it wisely. although we had to change the person to pick us up since the other one couldnt pull through. thats okay tho. babe was late for tshirt ;( hmm i feel bad ahah. but he said its okay hehe. i love spending time with him, of course hehe.

pictures from the day:
from my cellphone because my camera was getting fixed ahah.

with the usual usuals

today i went with sherry, shindy, and jay. i think were the ones that are still standing. theres still the rest, but usually were the ones cruizing ;) its okay, thery'll be other days with the others. i love them :D hehe.

well woke up early tahah. thought we were all meeting up at 8:30 ended up meeting at 9:45 lols. then we all took bus. got to alas. first thing we did was go to Vans ! ahah we needed to find the right size for our shoes "era's" hehe. its the same type of shoe of jays lmfao ! plan job ! tahaha. hmm i discovered my feet grew a shoe size ! yay ! hahaha. so funny.

then we ate at genki sushi hehe. shindys first time. i ate the usual things i ate there. was delicious.
after we just went to the places we wanted to go. we went to stores even if we didnt have money :( hahaa. today i went victorias secrets first time, hooo sooo coool and preety and smell good the place lols. then we went other places. next we went to apples, take pictures of course ! after we went to jungle fun. hahah i love the photobooth there. NOT REALLY ahah.

haha okay so we plan to take pictures right. so then after we press the button to take pictures, the count off was so fast ! and we didnt notice that ! oh and the camera was only ment for ONE HEAD, we had FOUR HEADS TO TRY AND FIT. we ended up squishing each other and some didnt fit in lmfao ! then the second to last shot, no one was in, then the last shot cracked me up. jay had a solo pic. shindy said "jay took the fourth shot because he didnt get in the other pictures" ahha shindy sherry and i all started cracking up cuz funny the picture ! hehe. i swear i was having tears of joys ! lmfao. awww even if we didnt get the pics we wanted, we still had fun. ehehe.

then we headed off to games then dad picked us up and i dropped them off home. ;) what a day. hehe.