what a meanie

i cant believe that an adult could bash a person in front of them. it hurts me that they think about him like that. instead of trying to say it in a nice way, she goes and says it so mean in front of his face. just because of how he was in your class and how he acted before doesn't fckn mean he doesn't deserve to be honors. i cant believe that she doesn't realize how hurt i am even if it isn't me. i know babe just takes it as it is and WOW im so amazed at how he can do that... hes so amazingly well at criticize. he told me that it shouldn't phase me because its not my problem, that's just her opinion. and it doesn't matter to him. all that matters is that he has me. and that made me happy. although, deep inside i feel so bad for him because people don't fckn realize how different and better he is. hes the most courageous loving funny person there can be, and im glad hes mines. its fckn dumb how people can just judge a person by their past. why don't they just look at their progress and present. fckn stupid ! watch one day, karma's gonna get you. after today after what that person said, i don't even wanna win anymore. he told me he doesn't know if he wants to be surrounded by people being so negative towards him. and this makes me so sad because i know its true and i don't want him to go through that. so for all you people who judge out there, hope you have a nice day !

woah havent posted in a while

yeah damn i havent posted sheet in a while ! foreel. damn ahha. lately people just go on tumblr to vent thats why. but i always have you blogspot. i dont think people check mines anymore lols. its okay ;)

so yeah today after school riding home dad and babe was talking about me. they were telling me how i should learn how for cook because babe knows how. dad said yeah its always the man that cooks. babe was completly dogging about how i should eat vegetables and be more healthy. just because he eats healthy and cooks for himself. i fckn felt like shet. even my dad called me spoiled. fck yeah ill just have to admit im damn spoiled. but heck i still live in my fckn parents house and respect the rules. i dont go spending shet on some stupid stuff. i get what i deserve is my motto.

but i undestand where babe is coming from. i told him ill do it for him, ill learn to cook and provide for myself. i love my boyfriend and he pushes me to be a better person. its not that hes changing me, hes just improving my lifestyle so dont get the wrong idea that he doesnt accept me. of course he fckn accepts me :) hehe. and im so thankful for him.

as i got home i wanted to cry. but i just cried in my bathroom. then i didnt even know i cried a lot. but i wiped it off. i put a smile and went back to my room where babe was playing his game. so i tried to pull it off. except, he noticed my attitude changed so he asked what was wrong. i didnt want to mention it because i told myself its so small why should i be so sad about it. but he insisted and i gave in. i told him how sorry i was that i was like that. and i cried. then we talked everything over. long story short, i realize my boyfriend just wants me to live a better life by being healthy :) because he doesnt want to loose me and he doesnt want me to be like his stupid step sisters... ! i really dont want him to remind him that i act like them cuz im not.