wet n wild

as known as water park lols.

hmm woke up early to get ready to meet up with the rest of the peeps.
jay changed the plans. his mom suppose to take us to wet n wild,
instead they came my house to wait for my dad to take us.
haha babe knows where i live now ;P
anyways i went with babe, jay, gabe, and heather to water park.
we had a discount on the ticket. hmm...

first thing we do, get lockers. then we go ride the rides. i think we rode the new ride, i forgot whats it called. hmm i screamed at time tahaha. so shame. then we went on other rides. it was supper fun but tiring walking up to the rides lmfao. babe was scared to ride the tornado but i made him hehe. the bay was fun, right ? tahha. we ate lunch after. uhmm that made me full. right after we ate we went to the place where you just chill in the floaty and go around and around the course haha.

aww today just made my day. hehe spent it wisely. although we had to change the person to pick us up since the other one couldnt pull through. thats okay tho. babe was late for tshirt ;( hmm i feel bad ahah. but he said its okay hehe. i love spending time with him, of course hehe.

pictures from the day:
from my cellphone because my camera was getting fixed ahah.

with the usual usuals

today i went with sherry, shindy, and jay. i think were the ones that are still standing. theres still the rest, but usually were the ones cruizing ;) its okay, thery'll be other days with the others. i love them :D hehe.

well woke up early tahah. thought we were all meeting up at 8:30 ended up meeting at 9:45 lols. then we all took bus. got to alas. first thing we did was go to Vans ! ahah we needed to find the right size for our shoes "era's" hehe. its the same type of shoe of jays lmfao ! plan job ! tahaha. hmm i discovered my feet grew a shoe size ! yay ! hahaha. so funny.

then we ate at genki sushi hehe. shindys first time. i ate the usual things i ate there. was delicious.
after we just went to the places we wanted to go. we went to stores even if we didnt have money :( hahaa. today i went victorias secrets first time, hooo sooo coool and preety and smell good the place lols. then we went other places. next we went to apples, take pictures of course ! after we went to jungle fun. hahah i love the photobooth there. NOT REALLY ahah.

haha okay so we plan to take pictures right. so then after we press the button to take pictures, the count off was so fast ! and we didnt notice that ! oh and the camera was only ment for ONE HEAD, we had FOUR HEADS TO TRY AND FIT. we ended up squishing each other and some didnt fit in lmfao ! then the second to last shot, no one was in, then the last shot cracked me up. jay had a solo pic. shindy said "jay took the fourth shot because he didnt get in the other pictures" ahha shindy sherry and i all started cracking up cuz funny the picture ! hehe. i swear i was having tears of joys ! lmfao. awww even if we didnt get the pics we wanted, we still had fun. ehehe.

then we headed off to games then dad picked us up and i dropped them off home. ;) what a day. hehe.

furlough day

hahaha so funny its a furlough day today. its where the public schools get close down because they want to cut down on teachers pay and save electricity. but the thing is i hate it and love it. hate it because it has so much bad things about it. first of all i have more homework now because teacher dont get to teach and so they make sure we learn something on these furlough fridays. secoundly teachers get low pay, which makes me feel sorry for them. they're the people who need to get paid a lot because they put up with us students in their life and they should get paid what they deserve. and wtf is up with the government trying to save energy. i mean LOOK AT the own government building, SO MUCH electricity?! how about you thinking about the environment by not building too much housing and shet like that. so STUPID i tell you. SAVE your fuckin money, stop taking it out and school. whats going to happen to us students now, especially the stupid one. their not going to get inspired to go school anymore, their not gonna take school serious. hmmm if anything, im going to BLAME the government for creating this kind shet. economy is hard, just work hard.

the good thing is i get to wake up later. i get to go cruizin with friends. i have reasons to be abel to go out more often tahah. i can like spend time with fam bam too. hmm... thats mostly about it ? oh wells ahah.

today im just at home because yesterday my aunty came from the philipins. imma fix my clothes because frick, too much and i gotta see which i use. oh and im glad she came from p.i that way she can help my ma and pa and me too thaha. i love the clothes i got from p.i i guess :) lols. hmmm.. gonna go to it now byee.

usually,

i miss the usuals who hung out every afterschool during homecoming week.
im glad i met them. i mean they mean a lot to me now that i got to know them well ! its fun being with them. we can just be random sometimes and we'd laugh. i've gotten close to other that i'd thought id never get close to. i feel so thankful and whenever they go to me for help im so happy because in a way its like there trust for me is getting stronger ;) sometimes its hard tho... giving advice. i would say things but i dont even take my own advice sometimes. i guess we just going to deal with it with each other right? we can get through this right? i mean its not the end, just the begining. i cant wait till we have another even that way we can all come together again and forget the awkward moments and just hang like we did before. i understand everyones situation. i dont want to ruin anything either, i especially dont want to loose anyone at the moment. i love my usuals ;D theyr'e the type of people that accepts each other because we like to have fun and work hard ahhah !

surprised

that im still with you
that i put up with the shet we go through
that i understand you
that you understand me, sometimes*
that we fuss and fight in a funny way
that we get a long
that were still here for each other
that everyone watches over what we do
that you piss me off but i let it go
that you irritate the fuck out of me
that i irritate the fuck out of you
that even if we do i still love you
that even if your hurt you still love me
that even if i cry you dont know what to say
that you feel guilty whenever im sad
that you spend your money on me
that your the opposite of whatever i wanted
that no one knows you like the way i do
that no matter the wheather, babe ill be here
that im not leaving, your not leaving
that weve been together for awhile
that we met freshmen year and look at us now baby ;)

JAB<3

God Is Love

i joined confirmation because my mother belived that it will be good for me.
i only did it for her thinking it was going to be a horrible experience.

but everytime i go, i have a stronger faith in god.
i have friends that go to the same place as me and its fun to share it with them.
i learn new things when i go there.
i mean yeah sure it gets boring at times, but its worth my time.
i didnt come into this knowing id get something out of it.
i proved myself wrong, that this will improve me.
i belive it has an impact on how i act towards things now.

before all this, i felt that god wasnt close to me.
i felt giving up everytime i was down. i felt that he wasnt on my side.
i felt it was hard to search for him. i felt he couldn't hear what i was praying.

but, i realize that there is one god and hes there in our existence.
he is our faith and our holy spirt.
i thank him for all the things that are given to me in life.
im fortunate to have the things that make me happy in life.

i learned that society plays a great role in our lives.
in order to be with god you need to be in service to others.
to be humble to others and respect each other.
to sacrafice for things so that you can get something back.
no mater what happens, things happen for a reason.
god is not going to give you something you cannot handle in life.
but whatever happens i have learned to understand the differnt point of views.
to not judge anyone because only god can.

i could talk about this for a long time.
i never thought i would be so interested in this.
im thankful im going through this. i want to be confirmed.
experincing confirmation is going to a ride of my life ;)

People

sometimes irritate the fuck out of me.
i mean thanks for telling me the informations, and i appreciate what you guys are trying to do. just letting me know the truth.
but sometimes you dont need to go up to him and irritate him.
stop judging what hes doing. your never gonna be in his position. your not going to understand what he does. NO ONE is fuckn perfect. and so what if you think its a waste, its something that makes him happy.
yesterday having him complain to me about people bugging him about his hobbies made me feel so bad. yeah i thought it was lame, but in the end i respect what he does. seeing him so frustrated makes me so sad. feeling guilty because people care about me and he thinks no one cares about him. but i care.... i learned from him to accept people as they are. he made me realize everything. my wierdo, cares...thanks for sticking with all the crap thats thrown at us. as you said you wished you lived in a world where its just you and i...

Back to school

fall break was the funnest one i had yet. i got to spend a lot of my time with my friends ! i spent a lot tho taahaha, thats okay everything for me was worth and worth my time. ive met great people during school and i got to know them better. its funny how high school brings people together. im super glad i met my usuals :) hmm....

ANYWAYS, school! i got up my usual time which is 5:55 lols. got ready then went and walked with nicole to school. went to usual spot. someone told me something about my wierdo. so i went straight foward and had a talk. but my wierdo explaind everything, so i guess things are alright. i wont forget but like im fine i guess haha. my classes went by fast.

afterschool went to one council meeting fast kine. then after wards the usuals walked over to dillingham side to have a back to school outing. babe walked with me tee hehe. well wish hed came but he went to his friens house lmfao ! what a wierdo. jk hah. anyways, suppose to go honu sushi but frick, was busy. so we went l&l. i dont really like their food but i was hungry and ate kalbi. after that, the usuals took group picture like always hehe. so funny tho. hmm i wish i had a new cam tahha. just gonna have to wait i guess. frick lol.

thought of the day 10.12.09

that you wanted to be close again.
we always try to keep in touch
and then we loose it ?
i dont get you sometimes.
seriously, i try to keep in touch.
i know you have but then what happend ?
i comment pictures and i dont get anything back.
its like you dont appreciate that i try.
but thats okay i mean i can deal with it.
you say you were always there for me.
but now you really dont want to be.
once i saw i wasnt on it anymore i realize you dont wanna be there for me.
after all the things i said it was like nothing?
i mean i thot i couldve at least tried again to regain that friendship.
but i guess i dont deserve that place anymore.
thanks tho for the memories that we had back them.
thanks tho for helping me.
i wont forget you no matter what, like i said.
sorry for whatever i have done that made you take me off...
i hope you know ill still be here.
i just feel hurt because i thought you wanted me to open up to you...

party

@ gabes house. it was his actually his birthday party but pass his birthday day lols. sorry i dont know if that made sense lols. hmmm sang kareoke then ate. after that we watched friday the 13th. it was scary and stupid and gross ! lols. jason never dies !!! tahahaha. after that took pictures then ma picked us up. droped of a friend and went home.


home sweet home. at least i thought so. i hate having to be erked by sister. i hate having to find a messege on myspace teling me something of what he did. saying how he can do that ! and fuck i hate how i cant even contact you so i can get everything straight out because people are irritating me. and i dont want to belive that you did that but at the same time if you did YOUR STUPID AS HELL ! ughhh*. i understand itll be your choice but then again, YOUR NOT THINKING.
and My ma and dad are erking. fuck ! no like give me money. shet piss me off. i no shope a lot i just go out a lot. hmm i wna sleep early today...

a Usual Day :) 10.09.09

woke up early to clean my room. then dad took me to ala moanas so i can buy the dvd "a walk to remember" and he bought "orange chicken and fried rice from pandas" DELICIOUS ! hehe.

after that i went over to foodland side to pick up some people. jay, sherry, shindy, and sara. nicole was already at my house and we picked up brandon after. we started off by making our brownies. then we ate lunch. mhmmm panda express ! tahaha.

after, we changed into the clothes we were gonna get wet in. each group made waterballoons. thanks sherry for buying them ! it was fun making them i guess but it was a long process ? lols. micah came on time before we started our water balloon fight lols. so we sepreated into girls vs boys. obviously us girls were bad aimers lols ! thats okay. we ended up hitting each other with water balloons. after all was gone we used the hose which was like a sprinkler or a shower ! lols. we kept splashing water. i felt like a kid! haha. it was funny ;) eww my hair was wet and everyone had to see haha. thats okay tho it was worth it. i loved it hehe. then we took vids and pictures of course.

after that we changed and then got some brownies with ice cream and drank smoothies too that my dad made in the begining. we watched the movie a walk to remember. jay and micah didnt watch it before. movie was wonderfull. i teared up in parts lols. awww us girls were ;( idk about the guys tho lols ! anyways, after that sara and shindy had to leave. mother dropped them off. while they left, had sherry nicole micah brandon and jay left. we all sang kareoke. it was funny haha we were singing anykind. then micah left, and the rest of us were waiting and passing time while dad was getting ready to drop the rest home.

babe called unexpectedly ! lols. i missed it tho two times, i hate missing his calls. but luckilly he called again ;) and yeah im glad he thought to call today hehe. oh and then i listend to his voicemail he left, soooo cutee ! hehe. so yeah that was a happy day today ^__^

im thankful i have parents that allow me to do this. i just gotta make sure they know that i appreciate them. i love them soooo much. thanks to everyone who came today :) thanks for enjoying here at my place. hope we do this again hehe.

pictures of the day:

w/ <3 10.08.09

i get up in the morning because you call to remind me what time your gonna be there at the bus stop. and i think yay babe remembers.

i get up later and get readdy. mom took long to drop me off. i felt nervous cuz i was thinking he mustve got tired and left... but nope, i was two minutes late from the time i told him i would be there. but he looked so mad as i met him. he told me he was just tired and that the heat was getting to him lols. hmm... then our bus comes and we had to sit sepearte for awhile. then afterwards we sat together ;) i felt so happy at the moment cuz it was like the last time we were together on the bus hehe.

then we got to alas. you talk about your life as i listen. you tell me these somewhat weird but interesting things that youve experienced. its okay that i dont tell much because i just want you to know im here to listen. sometimes i wish you would care to ask tho, but then again my lifes complicated? tahaha.

first thing me and him does, SHOPPING. hahah. you bought stuff and you offered to get me something. and heck if someone offers i accept. i wont accept if i dont deserve it, and yeahp i preety much deserve what you bought me :) i got shoes that i always wanted ! thanks babe. after that we went over to genkis and ate for lunch. i got full fast everytime i eat with you ! i dont know why tahaha. i love these moments with you, it makes me realize that you actually care about me and that this is how i fall more for you ;) anyways, after that we went downstairs and i wanted slippers so badly. you told me i could have so thanks babe for buying me these things. but thats not the reason why i love you and ive told you that lols.

after that, we went looking for jay. while we did i found out some new things about you. it surprises me on how your really differnt, its just that you hide your abilities to be that great person that i see to others. i wish you would prove them wrong because youve proved me wrong. so as we met up with jay, you had to leave. and it was okay because all that mattered was you spent time with me..
.

wake up call

today you call early in the morning because that was the time everyone at your place was still sleeping. and you had to get ready for go to you erking tshirt theater meetings. anyways, once i heard your ringtone i automatically grab my phone and wake up ;) just to hear your voice made my day. you told me how your sorry that your so busy. you tell me how much you miss me. i tell you how much youve hurted me and how much i cried for you cuz i thought you have forgoten me. but you tell me how you can never have a time to forget me. you tell me how you wonder if i ever am loosing feelings because you hardly have time for me. i tell you that thats what i thought about you. you told me you had a wake up call dream. meaning you dreamt that dream and it made you realize that you needed to talk to me. see babe thats good, but i just wish it was more often not just here and then. i dont blame you tho, you just wanna be active. i blame the things you join actually...
anyways, i tell you something and then again you realize and you invite me to go to my favorite place genkis. yay so its me and you thing tomaro ;) hopefully you keep your word...

FML

my mother is my savior. without her i dont know what i would do.
thats what a typical daughter/son would say.
but my mother is the strongest fighter. she went through so much sickness and is still here fighting for us. now that you can say is a true caring person.
please lord dont take my mother away from me.
i overheard my mother saying she should stop being nice so that god wont take her as his angel.
that hit me right there... i dont want to loose my mother.
shes alright right now... but shes suffering with depression.
she still has to go through this treatment...
i wont be able to see her for days... how the fuck can i handle that.
i cant even explain this to anyone because i know they wont know how i feel.
they wont be able to help me, and i cant blame anyone.
all i could do right now is make it up to my mom, to make her proud in the end.
to make her feel that everything she has done for my family is worth it for her.
i dont want to dissapoint her... but its soo fuckn hard to be able to see that i cant do anything about this. i wish i had the powers to make her stronger...
she tells me shes gonna get weak... all i could say is mom i love you so much...

i feel guilty tho. with all the trouble my mom is going through, i still think of YOU.
i think of how i wish you were there for me as i get through this with my family.
i think of how you could be here with me and see how im suffering.
i dont want to loose you either. i dont want to scare you off with all the troubles i have...
i just wish youd make an effort to care, because i think im your first ever that ever cared about you in this kind of way....

i wish you were still there for me the way you say you were. now that your trying to avoid me i cant do anything about it. because i understand how you feel. i mean i wish we could learn to forgive and forget. but heck i forgave but i can never forget that you would just go and do that without even letting me know. i told you i wouldnt judge you. i know it was hard for you. but heck its hard for me to see my own best friend going through some stressfull times in life. hey im stressed and i wished i had someone to talk to. you were the one i would go to but now i dont know why we dont communicate. the last time we did i was busy and so youd say youd call back. i never did get that back... thanks tho for everything.

yeah i have other best friends/close friends to go to for this kind of problems. but you were the one that truley understood me. i dont want to bother others because they have a great life. theyre happy and i dont want to make them feel worse. i dont want others to feel sorry for me. i dont want them to worry about me. all i want is for them to be happy... thats what you can call me, your true friend...

100509 out with the usuals

hmmm woke up like around 9. mom made me do something for her on the comp. then i got ready for go out. mom took so long for take me too the bus stop.

had like half the crew already at the bus stop. haha i was the one who told everyone to be there by 10 45 and i was there around 11 ! im such a great planner? jus keeding. so we waitied for the rest of the people to come. then the bus came. and then after that we stopped by stadium and walkeeeed a loooong short walk to ice palace. i say short cuz was like only about 12 minutes walk? but it looked preety long to walk from stadium side to ice palace.
ice palace was fun. was cold and worth my money hehe. we toook like choke pictures. i wonder what people were thinking of us. camera whores? jus keeding. but like i loved being with them. some didnt know how for skate but they caught on preety fast hehe. some music made me feel down. cuz i wish he was there... but i skated it all out. and hey i didnt fall on the ice. i wanted too so badly but i didnt. i was like jinxing everyone so that i could get to fall but nawww.. i guess not jessica ! hahaha.

then sherrys mother picked us up. and we went to sherrys nice crib ;D we all chipped in and ordered pizza. we rented fast and fiurous the new one. pizza was good but then we ran out too fast ! lols. movie was good. hot cars ! tahaha. as i waited for dad to take us home, we went into sherrys room and raided it ! nah im just keeding sherri. but yeah im so jealouse, she has a lot of accesories ! tahaha. but like the usuals, we took pictures on her mac comp hehe.

well that was my day, it was preety fun speding time with them out of school hehe.

IMY SO MUCH

you dont know how much i really do.
"Every second
every minute
every hour
every day
it's you that i've been thinkin of
and everyday
every week
every month
every year
with you i wanna be in love
'cause i can't get enough"

i wish i could say this to you every fuckn day.
but theres no contact.

i learned from god is that in a relationship you have to make an effort
its not just one person, its the other person also building that relationship
and that you have to make sacrafices in life.

thats what im doing. but somehow your not.
i dont know why i let you do this to me.
others think im so dumb for sticking with you, but heck i cant let go.

i mean even if you put me through this kind crap
i learn from it. and i love you no matter what. you told me that too.

but, dont worry,
im not always gonna let you do this to me.
im not always gonna put up with this.
if you understand then thats good,
if you dont then why bother?

To hear that you were somewhere else on that day you told me we were suppose to spend time, tear my heart apart. i mean like wow you totally forgot about me. i wish you realize that im that girl youll never meet again... so dont looose it or ill be gone...

my homie

is the person that i always go to.
is the person that accepts me for who i am.
is the person that hears me complain about my life
is the person that i cry with
is the person who realizes im always there for uhm
is the person that doesnt get why i do things
is the person that i tell the truth.
is the person that notices when im down
is the person that knows me

after all thats said and done, i hope you realize im still here.
i dont want things to change. but what you told me hurted me.
and i cant do anything about it. i really wish i could but i cant.
so that leaves us to having to feel Hurt everytime.
like i say, just remember im always hurting when you are.

i dont wanna be the one to bother you.
i dont wanna be the one that hurts you
i dont wanna be the one that you lie to
i dont wanna be the one that complains
i dont wanna be the one that cause you trouble
i dont wanna be the one that gives you stress
i dont wanna be the one that you talk about
i dont wanna be the one that you hurt
i dont wanna be the one that just leaves
i dont wanna loose you as a homie at all.
but if you want to let me go then just let me know.

homecoming

pep rally. everyones wearing marroon having that GOV pride
i was so nervouse to dance infront of thousands of students.
then the time came. we got into a circle and prayed in a way.
then we watched the other classes and before you knew it IT WAS OUR TURN.
it was class of 2012 dance.
i was so hyped up. i bumped into my partner walking down the gym floor lols.
then lookin up to sophomores place and saw people cheering.
but then i hear juniors boooing at us. what sore loosers.

the music starts as my partner and i do our thang.
i went hard because i wanted to prove to everyone that i aint just one smart kid.
i thought i went fast but i didnt. i went and did my all.
this was my dance that i created, that others helped inputed on.
i wasnt about to fail for everyone to see.
i wanted to own this sheeet.
i wanted my other dance members to be happy and say that their time was worth it.
im so thankful they put up with me... with all my strict yelling and all my "do it over"
it was a fun experince. it brought us "afterschool kids" clooserr than before.

im gonna miss having to spend afterschool time. homecoming week is finish.
and every minute counted afterschool cuz we didnt come in last place.

Homecoming game... ahhhh we got 14-16
kahuku beat farrington. sooo gayyy !
thats okay i stilll got that FARRINGTONG PRIDE MANN !!!!
enter to learn, go forth to serve.

where are you

when i need you the most.
ive already explained to you how i felt.
on how i wish you were the one who was there for me all the time.
but you say your sorry and tell me how much you love me and how much you hurt when i talk to others.
i tell you i love you and i repeat to you how i only talk to them because your not there sometimes.
i tell you how i wish you would make time for me.
and you say dont worry your time will come.
and all i could think of shouldnt my time be everytime?
you say things that put me down but end up saying your joking.
but babe that actually hurts sometimes...

ive been there for you always. even if you put your lame things before me im still here.
i dont wanna leave you anytime soon.
you thought i was going to break up with you but babe im not.
im sorry i didnt tell you everything yesterday its just that i dont want to break down infront of you.
i dont want you to see me crying because im afraid of you doing the same.
i hate the fact that i can be such a drama queen.
but sometimes you think im such a girl, but babe what else do you want me to be?
a fuckn boy?!?!

you tell me how you hated me talking to that person and that it hurts you.
thanks for letting me know.
i can tell you try to be strong and not show your emotions.
but its so hard to be able to see what your feeling.
i wish you could just show and tell me instead of keeping your emotions inside.

why are you messing up things these days?
you told me from now on your gonna think of things, but babe you shoulda always thought of things before you say it.
i cant belive you might get out of stuff* but i dont want you too.
i wanna fight for you i wanna be in this for you.

you wanted to take me out today just you and i.
but i didnt know the info. i didnt know what time to go or where to meet.
i wished you called to remind me.
i called you so many times.
i even called your house even if i was afraid your step mom was gonna answer.
but your brother answerd and told me you went out.
so i ended up crushed because what if you actually went to meet me and i wasnt there.
i wanted so badly to be with you today.
i wanted so badly to just have these days alone with you and you to pay attention to me.

babe other people think your such a bad boyfriend, your so irritating, your so immature, your so idiot, your so worthless. BUT, the fact is, they dont know my side of the story. to be able to understand why i PUT UP WITH YOUR CRAP. cuz its a long story. i loved you for a long time and i dont wanna stop. at the moment i dont see myself looking at other guys just because you treat me like this. i belive that god put me with you to make me learn. to have me learn my mistakes, others mistake, that way i can grow to be a strong person in the long run. i told you I DONT care what other people think of you. ALL I care is WHEN your WITH ME and ONLY ME.

fourth day of homecoming

today was powder puff football.
girls will be the football players while the guys are the cheerleaders ;)

yay ! sophomore football players won second place !!! hehe.
cheerleaders did the awesomest ! they weree sooo cutee ! tahahah.
thanks to the sophomores who participated in this even, they sure did a well job !
im sooo proud hehe. made me feel better because yesterday was bleh :/ tahaha.

afterschool was good. got moves down and in sync. outfits are figured out.
all we gotta do is to be be nervouse and go all out tomaro ! hopefully.
im just gonna expect us to have fun ;)
OH and banners loook soooo sexxy yeah s'mores. thanks to the people who helped they are the best helping out afterschool hehe.

pics and vids will be posted up later.