Treated

My boyfriend is a very nice person. once you gotten close to him he treats you with what you deserve. Hes not selfish at all. Im glad that i met him, i always say that lols. but its the truth. hes the type of person that just spends things on what makes him happy.

so today woke up early and got ready. babe came over and we left to go meet with others. then we went to ala moana. after that babe and i went shopping while the rest split since we were waiting for the others. then they came and we ate genkis. babe treated us. how nice ;) hehe. all of us went all over and babe bought me things today :) then babe let us take the cab with him, and dropped us off at kams. them mama picked me up. mom thought i bought a lot, but nope i was just carrying his things cuz babe said to bring it for now lol...

anyways, i dont ask much from him. but hes just generouse and gives me what i deserve ;)

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so....

after all is said and done... i still love you like you do too... i cant belive you just did that though... you shouldve trusted me... i dont mind you talking to them, its just that what you first said didnt match what you were doing... so i got mad... i told you to talk to me when you know whatsup...next thing you know i get your call. i was expecting and hoping you would call and you did. i cry, you cry. long story short, we worked it out. you apoligized i let it go... you hate arguing with me and i hate arguing with you too... but relationships go through this kind of crap... i wanted it to be fixed before we go out today... which we did... i dont wanna loose you... and i said "babe lets just forget about this and move on by learning..." and you said "thats all i wanted..."

remember my last post "fuck you . fuck this . fuck everything . for now..."
yeah i ment it.. "for now" lol.

irritating

fuck you. fuck this. fuck everything. for now...

Messeges

im sorry for checking it but i always tell you that i do. i mean its not like we have anything to hide right? when i saw those messages my heart sank. i started crying... i thought i was gonna loose you... i thought you were hiding something. you deleted it thats why... but then i just went to you and talked about it. and i guess i got it all wrong. it was nothing to worry about. you just delete the others because you only want our messages :) thanks babe... im sorry for overreacting. but you told me how these kind of problems will just help make us stronger. and i agree babe. it has made us both stronger. you let me know im the only one and your the only one. thats how it should be :)

yeah you can say im derlirious for him :)

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"Did you know when you dream about a person, that person went to sleep thinking of you? Did you know when the person you like looks at you & and then looks down, they're crazy about you? Did you know that when a person looks at you directly in the eyes they love you more than you think? Did you know when that person looks at you alot they can't live without you? Did you know when they leave, they say bye too much because they don't want to let you go?"

Daddy

i miss my daddy. even if he just left today. hes on his way to the philippines. he wont be coming back till feb 13. i dont think hes gonna be here for my birthday... so today as i dropped my dad off to the airport i realize that im gonna miss him. im gonna miss him spoiling me, dropping me off to places, cooking for me, making me laugh, and letting me do the things i love to do. dont get me wrong, my mom does the same, but it takes both parents to make it more better. im glad i stil have my mom here with me, its just that dads just gonna make me worried... especially hes far away, its gonna leave me wondering if hes safe... dont get me wrong, i love the philippines... i miss the phiippines. if i could go i wouldve gone but nope... when dad had to go, i hugged my dad and i started to cry. i think i was the only one crying lmfao ! my eyeliner smeared haha and dad said to stop crying cuz i ruined it lmfao. you can say im daddys little girl. i have the same attitude as him, my mom always complains how im simillar to him.. hahah. its funny tho :) but seriously, i guess this will make me appreciate how i have both parents with me and im thankful i have a dad like him... and a mom that both are supportive ;) i dont say it often but i know they know i love them... no matter what...

Merry Christmas

so at midnight, my aunty and uncle and cole came over. we ate some food. cole and i made chicken strips, our way i guess haha. then they left and i went to sleep. woke up in the morning and its christmas morning :) got ready then opend the gifts my friends got me. watched baby nephew, nathan sooo cuttie haha. i ended up tired and fell asleep again.
then nicole came over and i did my eyeshadow. she wanted me to do hers so i did. sister too lols. we all looked dolled up for christmas. cole and i had like the same outfit, just opposite colors. but we wore red white and black i guess ahha.
other family members came over. we sang kareoke. we took group pictures. it was funny cuz we all had to squeeze in. i loved it though :) after we continued doing kareoke. then aunty blessed food and we ate. YUMMIE FOOD haha. then half sis came over ;) got gifts hehe.
mom took a pictures of cole and i by her plants and dads star ahah. was so funny, was like one photoshoot. its okay, we have our moments :)
then it was time to open presents. got gifts from secret santa, got some cash, got some gifts from others. i'm preety satisfied with what i got :D everything i got is usefull. ohhhmy gosh i got the ferrero rocher box chocolate. got the loads cuz sis got one too ahha. its lucky to have a sibling, cuz i get to share ahha.
then after people started leaving and mom,sis, and i just kept singing then we got tired. so we got ready for bed and everyones sound asleep on christmas night hehee. wait isnt this the last firday of 09 ? i guess soo haha. im actually typing this out cuz im bored and not sleepy yet.
anyways, this christmas to me seemed better than last years? i mean i got most of the things i wanted which im supper thankful for. i got to celebrate i with my family which was the most important thing. and thank you christ for this day for having jesus come in our world to save us from our sins. MERRY CHRISTMAS :)

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tis the season

to be jolly? yeup it sure is. this year i didnt really care how many gifts i got. all i wanted is for my love ones to be happy and to be happy with me. yeah sure i wanted some materialistic stuff, i cant help it. i've learned to be patient, to not open my presents this early in christmas. tahaha. even if i opend some or know some of the gifts, its okay. i mean im just thankful for the things that the ones i love have given me. it doesnt matter if its expensive or not, as long as i know they did it out of love.

this year, i finally have a person to count on to keep my love. like the song says "last christmas i gave you my heart but the very next day you gave it away". this year, i have him to keep my heart. im so thankful and glad hes still here with me. he makes a lot of effort in this relationship. i can see a change in him, and i love him for being the same person that i loved in the begining. i love how we constantly remind each other how much love we have each other.

some people say that the christmas spirt has gone down the drain. well to me, it hasnt. it only has if YOU make it to be that way. i belive that the true meaning of christmas is about CHRIST. thats the reason why we should be thankful. im glad i went church today, my faith in god has become stronger. i praise the lord everyday, and god will provide. well, my dad loves decorating. my mom shops for us. my sister and i just help around ;) as long as my family comes together on christmas day, then im happy. tomarro i guess were celebrating with ma and dads side at our house :D ya, i love staying my house. it feels so homeey to me, duh jessica ahha. anyways, opening gifts tomaro. excited tho hehe. i cant belive christmas is here. how fast days go by...

2010 here we come

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“ I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you, how good you look when you smile; how much I love your laugh. I day dream about you off and on, replaying our conversations; laughing at funny things you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagined. I wonder what will happen the next time we’re together and even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing for sure; you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me. "

ice palace

with some of the usuals. today was a last minute plan i guess to go to ice palace for shindys last full day until she goes to washington for vacation. imma miss her even if its only for two weeks i think lols. anyways, today babe came over then dad dropped us off to fhs. babe and i waited till aja, gabe, shindy, and jay came. we took bus and walked to ice palace. babe treated me :) and then we went get skates and eat. jay treated us a whole pizza, yummie. then we went to skate. haha so funny, babe hasnt skated for the longest. he told me the last time he skated was in 8th grade ! lols. its okay i holdded him for most of the time ;) he fell a few times haha. zane kept making trouble to him haha. shindy, aja, and i wanted to request a song. so we requested bedrock, BUT the freakin dJ didnt follow through his word. we WAITED so freakin long to hear the song? WE ended up leaving at 4, but we ended up not hearing the song. we were suppose to dance in the center of the rink like last time, but ugh stupid busy dj guy ! ahah. he kept moving and we trie to hunt him down ahah. after ice palace we went into this store, aja and i bought landyards. yay :) i finally have one thats nice i guess? haha. then we went take bus home. on the bus i was tired, then when we had to separate, i kept hugging shindy because it was my last time spending time with her until she comes back ;) hehe. i almost cried, but i didnt want to show it ahah. but yeah, a great day. very tiring. spent time with babe and the usuals whom ive missed hanging out with ;) next time again tee heee.

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"I'm madly inlove with a boy that makes me completely insane. He makes me smile, laugh, cry, and scream more than anyone else I know. But, I'm head over heels for him & I know he's got it bad for me too. So, through the good and the bad; when it's all said & done, the only thing that matters is that were both completely crazy about each other."

meet the parents ;)

so today babe plans to come over my house. he came like an hour later than he said he would. ma was gonna wait but she had to go to her christmas party. so then when babe came over grandma asked funny questions. shes such a fob. babe was talking filipino to her. then jonimar came over. we all watched "a walk to remember". how cutee hehe. babe said he cries in the movie. he was tearing at the end. hehe was so cute he was tryna hide ! but during the movie dad came, he met babe for the first time. he interviewed him about himself. he didnt interogate babe. babe was kina nervous looking? i dont know ahha. but yeah i could see them two getting along hehe. then after that babe ate some food. hes so fatty hehe joking. then after ma came later, she met babe first time tooo. she talked to him for a while. and i was surprised she didnt say much to annoy me ahha. adults leave us alone which is surprizing but good ;) nicole wanted to make brownies so we did. it tasted good hehe. we all relaxed today. it was fun being with babe. he finally met my parents. im thankful they accept the fact that i have a boyfriend. oh yeah, babe opened his gift that i gave him early lmfao. he wore his shoes today ahah. i opend his too anyways, i gave him the other ring. he bought me a ring ;) it states "what would i do without you?" how cute hehe.

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unfair

im always there. im the one that you call about information. im the one who listens to you even if id get irritated i put up with you because im always there for my close friends. now loook ! today just proves to me that im nothing, they come first. i thought we were all close that. but yet, you just push me aside thinking i would understand. hey i dont really know your relationship with them but i know i always help you at least as much as they do and YOU just dont appreciate. you fuckn tell me youll get me thoes things. but NOOOOOOOOOO ! just because i never go with you guys, you dont get it for me. i even reminded you. you said you would. but just because they were there you bought them. i thought it was just a discount but noooo. hows that. you get them and not me. FUCK THAT im done with this kind. i hate getting close to guys that fuckn only use me to get to someone. SHET you guys no even talk that much and SHE GETS ! fuck. so irritating. and its surprizing how she says she doesnt want it but ends up taking it. so wierd. hmm idk the whole storry but oh the fuck wellls....just leyme know whassup...
hawww you told me youd give me these discount cards... i was sad. shet i get only that much of a discount and pay the rest. and they get free. hows that. I even bought you a gift. shet. i dont even know if i wanna talk to you. you always late minute.... fuck this crap.

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"In every girl’s life, there are three guys. The one she loves, the one she hates, & the one she cant get enough of. Turns out that in the end, they’re usually all the same guy."

120809 - being spolied

sorry i've been blogging late because on thoes days, i dont have time to blog. i was either busy with school or just too tired to reflect on a great or depressing day lmfao.

anyways, on this day, after school i was suppose to go mcdonalds with friends. i ended up getting picked up by dad. i was mad at dad for picking me up early but i apologized as he then took me to mcdonalds. after that on our way home, i mentioned to dad how i wanted a new phone. i asked how much would he pay. then he called up my half sister who works at At&t and asked her about the monthly plans and such. dad took me to waipahu where my half sister works. i didnt know my dad was actually gonna get me a phone. but, half sis said i should get an iphone. so i did. and dad agreed :) he says he'll pay for the monthly cuz i know my mom was gonna get mad for having to get a phone lmfao. dad likes to spoil me he said haha. i felt kina guilty tho, cuz my dad left jenny, my half sister and then letting her see how our dad spoils my sister and i is kind of wierd. i wonder what she thinks. but she said shes okay cuz as long as dad treats my family well then shes happy. lols.

anyways, so i got a new phone. new number.

Xmas gifts

today i went shopping with babe and heather. babe showed us where he works and buys a lot of his stuff. then we went to ala moana. we ate genkis :) then we went vans. i bought babe shoes for christmas. then heather and babe bought peoples gifts. babe also got my gift which were our promise rings? lols :D its preety cute i guesss hehe. i also bought gifts for others. i didnt really buy anything for myself. babe also got me a hello kitty ring from hot topic ahah. next we three sat down and talked about middle school and random things lols. then gabe jhe met up with us and we went to wal mart. me and babe went walking around inside of wal mart while the rest of them looked at dvds lols. woah the dvds were on sale ?!?! lols. hmmm i feel so warm around babe ;) i mean he makes me feel so happy. he tells me he feels like jello when hes with me hehe. i feel like that too ahah ! after, babe and i took bus to go home, the rest waited for their rides.
babe and i on the bus :) i love how we would sing to each other parts of songs. i love how he reminds me about our love and how we met and stuff. its sooo cutee :) he just is too me and i love spending these moments with him. babe told me he doesnt care hed get busted from his evil step mom because he spent the day with me :) i love how he just holds me and how we our hands would just connect :D i may sound corney but heck i feel so differnt around him. he has been my longest and hes the one that i got stuck to ^___^

Reconciliation 120909

so today right after a long day of school and signing up for an academy, i went to confirmation, im a catholic. this day we had to go church and participate in this reconciliation. it was a time for us to do a confession with the father. i was afraid to confess to the priest because, one i didnt know him well, two i didnt know what to say, and three it was my first time. so lucky thing i had a friend of mine tell me what to say at first. i went with her in line to confess. while in line, i prepared my mind to just think of all the sins i have done throughout my life since this was my first confessions to priest who was god at that moment. as i came up to father, i said what i could say. i wanted to say more, but i ended up stuttering because i forgot what i wanted to tell him.but its okay, father blessed me and i learned that god has forgiven whatever sins i have done even if i fogto to metion some other sins i may have done.

right after confessing, i kneeled and prayed to god. telling him how i appreciate him for forgiving me. and then all of a sudden i started breaking down, thinking of all the wrong things i have done in life. how i should thank these people who are in my life that creatd a big impact ! i was tearing, and as i got in dads car i told dad how i love care for him and how thankful i have a parent that supports me all the way. i started crying, and dad said he was proud of me and gave me the usual advice a parent would say :) i got home, dad went to work. i stayed outside and called my mom, telling her sorry and telling her how much i love and care for her. it was a voicemail. i apologized to my sister telling her how important and how i should be more of a role model to her. i called my homie telling him how thankful i am to have a person to listen to my problems. i called my boyfriend telling him how much i love and care for him and how im thankful we gave us a chance. i called my best friend since befor kinder that im thankful i met her and how weve grown strong in our friendship because shes like my long lost sister ;D

as i was speaking to these people, i was crying. i was touched by god and i wouldnt to let them know how i feel how much i wanted to spread the feeling of god to them. mom forgave me for how i lied and how she loves me no matter what and that she thankful i realized how much my parents have worked so hard for us....

i just wanted to let it out because, the life i have is all im looking for. i may get spoiled at times, i may ask too much, all i want to prove is that i deserve to have these people in my life. god gave us the certain people in my life to have me become who i will be :) i dont know if that made sence but oh wells :) i know its a bit late for thanksgiving but im thankful i have the people realize how much i am to them even though ive hurted them...

JB

he who has made me realize that things could change. im thankful i get a chance to spend time with him. im glad he even makes time for me. things came better. i mean before i was so used to him just hanging around and sometimes i thought he had put others before me. but now, i can honestly say you proved me wrong in many ways. i love the way he has constantly reminds me of how he loves me a lot and just cuddles with me and gives me that bubbly feeling. i dont remember when the last time i felt like this with another person. he seriously made an impact on me. whenever i dont get a chance to be with him, becomes a hard task. but, i overcome it because hes still in my mind and in my heart. yeah i may sound cheasy to whomever may read this, but hey im just letting out how i feel. maybe, im too young or whatever, but im surprised at myself of how i act. when im with him, i totally forget of others and just concentrate on him. it makes me sound so selfish and selfcentered, but hey what girl doesnt do that around a guy she totally cares about? others think hes wierd, or whatever, but all i can say is that, YOU DONT KNOW HIM like i do. i've been through so much and i have gotten where i wanted to be :) i love his sweet talks and his kind heart...

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"You ask me why I like you, and it's really something I can't put into words. Maybe it's because you make me happy most of the time. Maybe it's because you know how to keep a conversation with me. Maybe it's because you got me thinking about you before I go to sleep, and after I wake up. Maybe it's because I can be myself around you. Maybe it's because you bring the best out of me. Maybe it's because I can spend hours on the phone with you talking about the stupidest things. Maybe it's because I can never get enough of you. Maybe it's just because your just being yourself, and I'm slowly falling for you."

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I fell for him and he caught me. I didn't get attached to him because of how well he played the game,his smile or how sweet he was. I fell for him because I knew deep in my heart something was telling me to give this one guy a try something was telling me he might be different, something was telling me he'll treat me like a girl should be treated. So I gave it a try and from then and now our feelings grown for eachother and stronger and as I look back I'm glad I fell for him and I'm glad he was the guy to catch me.