November 28

i woke up early got ready to go around the island with fam bam. daddy rented a big van and we all fit this time :) haha. dad took long buying food but we still had a great time. first we went to the pinapple maze at dole plantation. nicole and sister leaded my way through the maze lmfao. then after we went to other stops and took pictures. we at lunch/dinner at china mans hat. cole, sis and i went swim. we actually just sat in the water taking a break from everything ahaha. foood was delicious as always. left late there and we stoped over the other historic places like the blow hole place? yeah was freakin cold hah. then we went to tatlaus ! was especially cold, but the bright city lights were beautiful. to me if this is just hawaii, whats it like in new york city? ONE DAY ill know :) ahah. when we got home i was tired, nicole slept while i was on comp tweaking.

later that night, i got a call from babes brother asking where jonathan was and phone numbers. i didnt know anyone of his friends number.... that left me worrying about him... his cousin comments me asking where he is... now im scared... but i stayed up that night uploading pics to myspace, lucky i was cuz i got a messeged from him ! yeah and i felt better, then we talked on the phone and i felt better :) ahaha

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black friday

omfg im tired! i litterally shopped till i dropped.

so woke up like at 4 : 05 i think? and then went off to pick up sher and cole.
we got at alas around 5 : 45 and we went straight to forever 21. ahah so funny we just went by the door side cuz who said we had to wait in a line?? then all of a sudden was almost 6 and everyone crowded the doors. yippe we were like one of the 100's to go in. i got skinny jeans that were dirty cheap ! and a top and cheap belt too hehe. was long line tho. then after we went to prototype i thinkk, bought some shirts for myself again ah. next off to wards, suppose to go im4mation but we ended up going to dig lifestyle, cheap things there too ! i got a gift for my homie ;) then we went back to alas, we went to pacsun, vans, i didnt buy from there, sherry bought a lot ! ahaha. then after we went and eat at genkis. yummie. my sisters first time going there aha. we also went slipper house and jeans wearhouse. i got some slippers and a top. after i guess we went to random stores to pass time cuz dad picked us up at 2 : 30

i got tired carrying the bags. my arm go like itchy ahah. but everything was worth it. i bought part of babes gift ;) its a useful thing hah. and then i had to wait in a long ass line just for buy his gift sheet ! its okay hehe. anywyas he never come, but at least he called to check up on me hehe ;) ahh i miss that loooser. im keeping myself busy so that i dont need to think about missing him too much ahah !

welll happy black friday peeps ! its my first time spending it with others, sherry, cole, and sis. it was fun ! and waiting in lines was worth it. i just was dissapointed in one shirt ! lmfao i guess ill give it as a gift ?! haha.

Thanksgiving-Truth day

so today in the morning i went to church. i learned that we should be thankful everyday. we can live our lives not thanking others but that's not going to show happiness. when you become a thankful person you share joy and love-thats what matters in life.

after church, went with ma cuz she wanted to get somethings from kmart cuz had sale i guess. then during the ride back home i asked ma questions. i was giving hints on how i have a boyfriend. i wanted to tell her right then but i was afraid on how she would react and i didnt really want my father knowing i had one! but, subject changed as we picked up turkey.

i got home and then babe called :) he made my day. he made me realize how thaknful he is to have me. im thankful sooo much to have him as my boyfriend. ive known him for awhile, and i can say i care a lot about him. he treats me a way that i havent been treated before. i love the way we just make trouble to each other. i love when we kiss because it makes me feel all bubbly. i love when im with him because it just makes me feel all warm inside. yeah, you may not think hes the perfect boyfriend, but to me hes all i ever asked for that i never thought i needed. he totally proved a differnt side to me even though he has his fooolish side, i take it in cuz no ones perfect right... anyways even if we didnt talk for several minutes, with you remembering to call me and greeting me, ment a lot to me. he told me he couldnt go black friday shoppin wit me cuz he had to finish his project i guess. its okay i understand, its suppose to be us girls shoppin anyways ;)

after his call, i realized i hated keeping him a secret... then i got hungry and ma called aunty them for come over so we can have our thanksgiving lunch. while waiting for them, ma dad and sis were around the table. ma asked me "do you have a boyfriend anako" i stuttered and said "ughh" and then she saww me blush so she knew it was obvious. so i just admitted. and surprisingly, they find it funny, cuz now they tease me and they want to meet him ahah ! i thot they were gonna get mad at me. but nahh, they understand that im a teenager and this is natural ahah. dad didnt get mad ahah! he was a bit sad i could see in his eyes cuz his baby girl has a boyfrind lmfao ! but, letting that out i felt better. i felt like i dont need to hide anything anymore. i didnt tell babe that my parents know yet, next time he calls ill surprize him ! aha :)

HAPPY THANKSGIVING ;)
this isnt my whole day, there was also a black out in the afternoon. ahaha. ma went work and i just bonded wit sis and dad as usual when its black out. im full and just gonna get ready for sleep cuz tomarro im goin shopping ;D hopefully i find great dealls hehe !

ive missed you

this whole three days of school was killihg me. the thought of not having to see you for four days sucked. i mean im not trying to be dependent on you but i just missed you. before i was so used to you being busy, now that you werent i was glad that i could spend time with you. monday was an okay day. tuesday was a annoying day. i didnt really get much hours with you ! sheeet. you wasnt even there lunch time and i was sad. whever im sad i just try to put a smile but i just turn into a frown. i got annoyed and i didnt want to spread it to the rest of the people haha. i never thought id feel like this for anyone. i mean its my first time feeling like this in a while. i hate caring too much for you. but, i cant help it, i cant control it. today was better i guess. being with you is fun as usual and it makes me feel warm inside that i have you by my side ;) you get some moody times but im used to it, cuz i get thoes feelings too aha. you didnt come the other times because you were off learning with him and im glad your trying your best to get a better grade ;) cuz you wanna beat me thats why ! ahah.

hmmm... i wonder why tears fall when i miss you. its not the end of the world if i dont see you. but i just hurt, cuz i always wonder things and i hate that. thinking of you is a constant habbit for me eversince long time. its not like hes gonna see this anyways, but im thankful to have met him.

date with babe

i remember our other dates taahaha. i love this one too ;)
you said its a date because its for our month-a-versery thingy ahaha !
you toook me out to wards and we watched new moon the day it came out ;) you worried that it was sold out, but then i said no worries cuz i called them up yesterday and asked if it was sold out and they said no. stupid friend of mines told me it was sold out fuckn guy was just saying that because he wanted for come stupid shet wanted for ruin my day even though i warned him yesterday that i didnt want to deal with him today lmfao.

ANYWAYS, new moon was awesome ! i mean was so sexxy the bodies, the scenes were so touching. i was like tearing up because edward left bella. and ughh was so sad haha. babe was a bit of distraction but its okay hehe ;) the wolfs were hella big and interesting ! haha. awww i loved how there was a bit of funny scenes lmfao. ohh and the ending ! oh gosh ahah ! babe was kina mad of how it ended, but thats how it ended in the book ;P cant wait till next year in july ! hahaha.

after new moons, babe and i walked towards alas and we ate genkis. i didnt eat much, just the usual. babe likes to treat me even if i insited i pay haha. hes suppper nice ;) and im thankful hes there for me and i get to spend time with him like this. its the happiest momments of my life.

i didnt wanna go home early so i went with babe to da planet or watever its called. watched babe play games while i listend to itouch haha. i got a bit bored though but i didnt wanna go home by myself. so we went bus together after, and i fell asleep with him in the begining haha. me and him were tired dont know why, i guess we woke up eary thats why ahah ;)

i love him uuuubeeeerrr duuubeeer muuuuchhh ;D happy furlough friday hahaha.

pics from the day :

lately,

i haven't been updating much. i usually do everyday. haahah. reason is, schoools preety hectic. projects are due often now, stupid furloughs ! ahah. anyways, business class is alright with me. the people i have in it help make that class fun hehe. right? english class is fun tooo :) im thankful that even if im an honors english, its not that hard compared to other students who don't have honors. but, i guess we sorta take advantage of her, which is not good. MATH omg its hard lately, i went down so much precents. tear* fcken sheeet i gett it but i guess im getting preety lazy and am very careless now a days. hmm... cooking class is awesome as usual, it satisfies me hehe.

errr myspace got me somewhat addicted to searching up great deals on outfits. haha boutiques on myspace? yeup serious. its funny, i used to think ayee what kind that, but now im the one buying ! shet i gotta stop because i need to save for...black friday and christmas haha. my mom tells me i buy too much.

friends, its the same i guesss. it has been rough for me a bit with others. i just get so irritated when people invite themselves to places and ruin things. fuck. and i hate the fact that things have to be repeated and i hate having to waste my breath shet. sometimes that person doesn't even understand how this frienship works, its a reciprocal thing, if your always complaining about your life and being such a pussy then why should i stay when you dont even listen to what i say. but i guess, i just have to deal with, i already am, im ignoring this situation...

the 18th day of the month just recently past ;) i love that day. its the day i said yes officially hehe. im so glad to have met you long ago and loook at us now baby ;) you make me smile with the little things you do, i know that sound so corny, but its okay. you say things that make me feel all smiley ;) i love making trouble to you and so do you. you make me realize why i have fallen for you.

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Sunday Morning Reflection

i missed church last week. i felt so crappy that day and tired. today i felt like i haven't been in church for the longest time when it was just last week that i didn't go. anyways, today i woke up early and went to church. i felt awake, and made sure i payed attention. i love it when father reads the gospel, because that teaches me a lesson. today's gospel was about the sacrifice and talking about the world? sorry i don't remember exact words. the thing i love about church the most is when father gives out a speech, when he preaches towards us. it interest me because he relates it to the reality and what he said to day made sence to me ;) haha. he told us about the 2012 movie how he doesn't believe in it and that the reason they probally made it was because they have interperet the scriptions. he says that they took pieces out from the bible storys and tried to make sence out of it when really its not true ! the only way to do right is to belive god is there for us in our hearts. to trust in him. to make sure you live out your faith everyday. he told us how we always ask "why does bad things happen to good people" well the reason is that even if bad things happen to good people and the bad people seem to be doing alright, is that god wants us to live out our faith, and to believe that he is there and so we need to triumph over the hardships. he told us to never give up in anything even if it seems tough. because in the end, good will triumph all no matter what. he reminded us how we live in an Imperfect world, there will always be people trying to discourage us, but its up to us to learn how to put up with it. i trust in god and im hoping to be closer to him on my journey in becoming confirmed :D

i love

how babe analyzes his dreams about me and him :)
how he tells me these stories
how he makes me feel loved
how babe makes me smile all over again
how he reassures me
how he compliments me
how babe shows me his affection
how he makes trouble to me
how he teaches me about reality
how babe is there for me
how he tells me the truth
how he makes time for me
how babe listens to me more often now a days :P
how he realizes how much i am to him
how he knows im here for him
how babe knows i love him :D

Stubborn

wow, you really showed me your different side of you yesterday. seriously i thought you would understand the decision that i made. i thought you knew me. you didn't, you went right ahead and been stubborn. what do you expect me to do? he's my boyfriend and he asked too. if you were in my position you would have done the same, tell me not ? seriously, you blew me off just like that. just when i was the happiest person getting my braces off, you go ahead and act so ughhh and ruined my day. hey i gave you another chance afterschool. yet you still didnt care to take a picture with me. you knew it was my day that i was happy. what? i failed you ? just because of that you werent proud of me? im sorry gosh :(

apparantly today is your day. you call and asked me to go but i wasnt sure. i told you how you acted like what you did yesterday and you said sorry. now i say "why should i go" and you just go "nevermind". i hate your short answers. so what now? why cant i do the things that you do to me back to you ? its not only this time. everytime i ask about things, you dont let me know right away, i always gotta go deep and ask again? when you just want me to say what i want to say. i dont force you or anything and look... man fck it. hows this for beign a homie to me...

but, hey this is just my point of view as of today. dont make it my last impression of everything... i dont want it to be like this.

BRACES OFF !

today i woke up excited :) went to school and got a pass. babe remembered that i was taking off my braces that day. having him take notice of things made me start off my day happy :)

went to ala moana. doctor took off braces. i thot was gon take long, but was preety fast the process. haha wasnt even hurtful ! was cool cuz they just went crush the braces and then the whole thing came off. then after that doc just when clean the glue and cement or whatever. after his assistant pollished my teeth ;) then they molded my teeth so they could make my retainers. the lady took pictures. then doc compared my pictures bfore and after. WOW DIFFERNT! haha i was such a seventh grader that time i had no braces. awww im glad my parents gave me braces :D it made a big differnce and boosted up my self esteem hehe.

first food i ate?? McMuffin ! lmfao ! i forgot how that tasted like, then as i taste it i fell in love with it? ahhaa. anyways got to shoool early. went to period two, didnt expect to lols. people noticed and complimented me :) thanks hehe. i tried not to smile but i kept smiling hehe. then after that period three. then lunch :) i kept smiling, some noticed, some didnt. the ones that noticed were the ones who look at me everyday because they care :D hehe. anyways, babe called just so he could be the first to take a picture. so i went upstairs to meet up with babe since he had to do a meeting. i was afraid to smile at him tho haha. but i ended up because i couldnt hold it in ;) then i took pics with him.

afterschool, went to ala moanas with my usual usuals. we ate genkis :) we had laughter ! bah was so funny, we should video tape everytime ? haha jk. anyways, i ate and finished and was full haha. then after we all seperated. i went to get my retainers. my retainers help my teeth become shiney ! hehe its so cool but its kind of wierd. but it feels like i still have braces ! haha. i wanted to get my teeth whitened today. ma said i could next time after i go to a dental appointment haha :D

pictures from today :)

havent posted up

things for days ? ahaha surprizingly. i usually do like almost everyday or event that happend in my life. lately, i've been totally busy on school, friends, family, and boyfriend.

its not really hard to juggle its just the hw that gets on my nerves. buisness class is its usual, fun and boring haha. english seems to get a bit harder, but i should appreciate i dont have a hard teacher even if im in honors class or should i say "honors Honors" hahah. alg two? hmmm its a struggle, but im getting it pace by pace. im hopping i dont slack on the tests damn it. meal managment which is cooking class is always fun ;)

i love hanging with the poeple i already am with, there no need to be another person around them. im totally me with them. ive gotten so close to the ones i thought i wouldnt have. but sometimes, i hate being mistaken to be tooo nice. because when i always try to help, its never reciprocal? its always about YOUR fuckn feelings. lately youve been a BITCH to me. thinking im your bitch. maybe im exagerating it a bit, but i just dont want our friendship to come to the point where im so irritated by being taken advantage of. however, im just thankful people count on me ;D

my family always has its up and down, but im learning to handle my anger, even if i may have blown up today just because dad rearranged my room. i was venting towards mother never realizing i havent thanked her for cleaning it. i said sorry and thank you to ma and aunt. i punished myself by rearranging my room and fixing stuff for an hour haha, with the help of sis of course ;)

my boyfriend, yeah him? of course him ;) ive learned you cant miss someone if your always with him. i remember how you were totally busy with your activities, i used to be jealouse that that goes first before me. i used to think that im not worth your time. but babe always proves me wrong. he tells me im number one. yeah sure he doesnt call as often as i want him to, but i understand his situation. i love it when he calls at times i dont even expect him to. to hear him tell me goodmorning and tell me how much he loves me and such, just makes my day, even if its only for a couple of minutes. lately, things are getting better. im just thankful to have him.