damn

wow i just found out like during school that michael jackson passed away. may he rest in peace, the king of pop ! he may have done some wrong stuff in life, but the main thing is hes got the talent. that talent that could liven up anyone elses heartbeat. oh i remember when i first saw his music videos, i wished i could dance like that. "dance like michael jackson". sometimes i just wonder, when you have it all they just take advantage and then loose it. im not being mean i just have an opinion. of course MJ has his own point of view towards life. its no doubt that his history will be on the books, it will live on. my favorite song was THRILLER even if the music video creeps me out, i love the beat! oh and that other song called BEAT IT and ohh ABC is EASY as 123. ya, i didnt know he sang that song till today ? lmfao. let us all know that we are blessed with a person to come up with this music into our soul that will never be forgotten. i sound like a person whose a priest or something but i just want to let out how i feel.

my favorite dance crew: QUEST doing their MJ moves
music: FM

that sucks !

i didnt watch transformers the revenge of the fallen today T_T oh wells theres always a next time i guess. hope i get to go with friends next week? lols. hmm today was preety tiring for me at least. too much math today. i wish we played a game after lunch, but yeah. alg games are preety competetive? sometimes haha. oh wow so off subject? anyways, i walked a lot today. dad couldnt pick me up lols since i changed plans. okay dokie im off to do something else haha.

Just finished watching...

TRANSFORMERS! haha my first time? lmfao i know im so late, but friends and i are going to watch transformers the revenge of the fallen [2nd movie] hope it wont get crowded? lols. tee hee it was cool watching it. damn i shouldve watched this ages ago ! i cant belive what i just seen lmfao. i mean i thot this movie would suck because it was about robots? but when you put
Shia LaBeouf and Megan Fox, well its all good :D they make a great couple, well to me ahah. pluse there both gorgeouse duh ! im so wierd that im like talking about this, id never thot i wouldve ? lols. well im EXCITED for tomaro man. hope it all goes well with the peeps so we can watch tomaro :) if not, theres still other days lols.

@alg class

im waiting till we start a game. im tired to do alg right now? haha. friends are planning to go to watch movie tomaro? transformers i think. sounds cool. hope we can go ! ahah but it might be packed which will suck? haha nah but yay finally get to cruiz with friends lmfao. math makes me so stressed but its getting better tee hee :)

@ school right now

its algebra and im just typing this out. its about to end in about five minutes. k bye

i dont know

what to do right now. i feel so depressed because i feel so forced.
i want to forgive but somethings just holding me back. im afraid that im going to end up getting hurt like i always did. right now i dont know who to trust. i wish i could go back in time and prevent this. but as you can see, whatever happens happens. so does this mean that the friendship is gone ? because they want us to get along. and if your only doing this because your told to then why should i bother make peace about this. im gonna end up being replaced in your life so why should i stay? i really wish i wouldnt be replaced because ive been there for you as long as i could. and ive told you before that you were like my sister and we had missunderstoodments but then when you did that to me i feel like im just fed up. i dont really want to deal with this anymore but i have to right? this doesnt make scence at all because im just typing down whatever i am feeling. i cried over this, maybe you wont because maybe you dont care about me anymore. i care about you thats all that matters but if you dont want me to be there for you just tell me. but instead of telling me, you replace me... which leaves us to an unknown answer that we cant seem to figure out. both stubborn people trying to figure out what to do. in the end its up to us to fix this and not our family. i wish it could go back in time like i said, but you can never change time but time can change us. im sorry for everything, and i realized what i did wrong. i dont really know if you know what you did that hurted me the most... so when youve figured it out, let me know...

Sometimes...

it hurts to see things rearrange.
but you know what, the facts are true.
yeah it takes time to heal, and i am.
dont worry about me.
i think im better off not in your life? do you say so?

it brings you to a pinnacle point in life.
not everything seems like what it is upfront.
because you can never trust someone who doesnt trust you?
you come to a point that your better off right?

it makes me realize how much of a person is.
truely, people change and they dont realize they're hurting others.
im used to it already, always the nice one getting hurt.
truely, this makes me stronger in life.

it shows the real side of others.
i mean, the grass is not always greener on the other side.
hey, we the people aren't perfect at all? see me for instance hah.
anywho, if you find the realness, then theres no doubt of endless time.

it states that no matter what you do, sometimes aint worth it.
to say that i've done so much, that its all that i can do.
no turning back on anything because whats done is done right?
and when you do it you regret it? but regrets suck, no lie.

In the end, i just want to say that for the time being, im going to try my best to build a bridge and get over it. It's not the end, so why give up so fast? If you lose me, its for a reason. If I loose you, im sorry.

HEWWWO !

today was the first day of alg camp.
tee hee sounds fun? not really haha.
im repeating it for the heck of it? nah but i need to get a better grade.
lols, i know, im a grade gruber.
it was good i guess.

then after that went waipahu with dad to meet up
with older sis jeanie at her working place.
dad got bluetooth from her. lols.
because its going to be the law to not use phones when driving ! hah

then ate subway eat fresh? lmfao.
just finished watching "tayong dalawa" its surprising how im addicted to it now.
because Gerald Anderson and Jake Cuenca are irresistable :)
tee hee one day i wanna wanna meet them ! or a guy like them? hmm lols.

thats all for today, my legs hurt? damn it hah.

its really

sad when you thought you knew them when you really dont.
its because time changes ourselves.
and we cant change back time.
i wish you wouldve realized how much of a person i was to you,
but it simply comes to show how much you really cared.
all i did was be there, and now im nothing.
thats okay because i understand and i know youve forgoten.
i have forgoten too everything. i wanna move on from this and i am.
because in the end, i dont deserve to be treated like this.
i deserve to be able to have people who have supported me.
but thanks anyways, im just going to end it here.
you never thought of ever apologizing for replacing me.
because i never did....but i have no choice but to have to?

i am not assuming whatsoever, this is how i feel.
and if you have missunderstood what i have said, then dont bother.
just the fact that you dont understand me anymore is very sad.
and that you cant take me as i am anymore, is more delirious.

booored

today, it was an average day? but its still the afternoon haha.
aww i cant see quest crew till next month on july 12 :)
they left hawaii damn it, but there coming back tee hee.

well i just finished updating the class council page. lols.
i know im such a tweaker? hah whatever.

anyways im gonna get off soon because i have a headache.
im gonna be using my itouch for the heck of it.
oh and im gonna see if i can go shopping.
errr im such a wierdo ? tee hee.
okay dokie bye bye :)

Videos of Quest Crew @ Hawaii State fair

http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=143jfer&view=videos

QUEST crew at carnival PICS ^___^

they were so awsome and
very nice and gorgeouse :)

i am glad that i was able
to meet them !

they're such an inspiration.

and hawaii is a hyped

up crowd :D

thank you quest for
coming to hawaii !

QUEST CREW again at 50th state fair !

oh yeah i just came home like half in hour ago.
yay today i went and watched quest crew do their thing again :)
and my friend kayla found me. hehe what a good thing !
we were all excited ! and screaming so loud man.
they are the best americas best dance crew lmfao!
pictures and videos will be up soooooon !
dont worry because i want to prove to you all that ive met them hehe.
anyways. right now im uploading the pictures and videos.

wow i spent so much these TWO DAYS of carnvial. carnival can really eat yo money up.
seriously ! but oh wells, in the end its all worth it when youve met your dream which was a goal.
lols i dont know if that made sence at all haha.

Ice Palace

Today woke up early to get ready. damn it i havent slept in bed long time in summer yet? lols.
anyways it was my cousins seventh birthday at ice palace.

it was preety cool i guess. nut much happend.
when i got on the ice, i was so shocked. i forgot how to SKATE!
but then when i tighten my skates and got back on the ice, it was alright.
i skated the way i usually skated? lols. i wasnt scared.
my cousins them kept falling ? lols. so erking tho i felt so shame !
my sister was starting to learn how to skate. i made her skate without the training things.
tee hee. but yeah, i made it through the party without falling on the ice haha.

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later on im hoping to go carnival. just to play games and not ride. waste my money to go on rides.
lols. i want to just stand in line then watch quest AGAIN, then go meet them and hopefully get more better pictures with all of them :))
[if my dad wakes up and takes us to carnival haha and gives us money.]

QUEST CREW pictures

the rest are on my myspace page, @http://www.myspace.com/jeh_see_kah

QUEST CREW

50 th state fair ! omg it was soooo awsome meeting QUEST CREW :)
im like in love with them. i took pictures and videos.
ill let you in on more after i eat. im hungry shucks haha.
still uploading pics.
RYAN AND DTRIX AND VICTOR AND BRIAN AND HOK AND ARIS AND STEVE AND FENG
omg there like soooooo STUDS and like HANDSOME in person ^____^ auu smiles.
my sister was like getting annoyed by my repetitive sayings. hahaha.

OMG cant wait

in the morning i helped dolled up my sister.
its her banquet today ^_^ hah i love the feeling of going to partys.
anyways, her friends are all wearing nice dress.
and im jealouse, you know why?
when i was a fifth grader i did not dress up like that.
gah, im glad my younger days are over. im so ashamed of myself.
i did not have anyone letting me know whats good to wear.
so my sister is lucky im here for her lmfao.

then i went to school for fast kine. hah.
just for check my grades. but ughh geometry didnt have a grade yet.
my teacher was stressin so i didnt wanna bother her.
but other than that, i guess im all good for school :)
what a year ! haha.

anyways right now im at home. uhm im just listening to the radio just in case
quest crew like suddenly talks.
im sooo like in love with them. im sorry if you think im wierd.
who else isnt okay? lol

i am so excited to meet, or at least see them live at the carnival :)
being able to see them up close is my dream. and dont worry, i will make it happen.
okay dokie bye -----jckah

Last day Of Freshemen year :)

HEY ! i just finished my first year of high school. Three more years to go.
dang. anyways. today was boring i guess. yesterdays finals was easy and hard. science was irritating to me and social studies was good i guess. my yearbook class didnt have finals. YAY. so then today i had finals for MATH-geometry. yah damn its hard >.<

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hmmm.... i knocked out today man right when i got home i fell asleep.
sooo tired from school even if i had half day today.
i waited most of the afternoon listening to the freakin radio. you know why?
QUEST CREW! i was trying to win quest crew front line tickets to meet them
but shucks >.< ughh can you belive it i was close to being caller #14. i was
caller #10.

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