woah havent posted in a while

yeah damn i havent posted sheet in a while ! foreel. damn ahha. lately people just go on tumblr to vent thats why. but i always have you blogspot. i dont think people check mines anymore lols. its okay ;)

so yeah today after school riding home dad and babe was talking about me. they were telling me how i should learn how for cook because babe knows how. dad said yeah its always the man that cooks. babe was completly dogging about how i should eat vegetables and be more healthy. just because he eats healthy and cooks for himself. i fckn felt like shet. even my dad called me spoiled. fck yeah ill just have to admit im damn spoiled. but heck i still live in my fckn parents house and respect the rules. i dont go spending shet on some stupid stuff. i get what i deserve is my motto.

but i undestand where babe is coming from. i told him ill do it for him, ill learn to cook and provide for myself. i love my boyfriend and he pushes me to be a better person. its not that hes changing me, hes just improving my lifestyle so dont get the wrong idea that he doesnt accept me. of course he fckn accepts me :) hehe. and im so thankful for him.

as i got home i wanted to cry. but i just cried in my bathroom. then i didnt even know i cried a lot. but i wiped it off. i put a smile and went back to my room where babe was playing his game. so i tried to pull it off. except, he noticed my attitude changed so he asked what was wrong. i didnt want to mention it because i told myself its so small why should i be so sad about it. but he insisted and i gave in. i told him how sorry i was that i was like that. and i cried. then we talked everything over. long story short, i realize my boyfriend just wants me to live a better life by being healthy :) because he doesnt want to loose me and he doesnt want me to be like his stupid step sisters... ! i really dont want him to remind him that i act like them cuz im not.